FenceSitter
JoinedI have no idea where to begin. I have trusted in the Truth, and its organisation all my life. I am friendless and socially not very competent because that's what happenned to me for being no part of the world. I think some of you might know what I am talking about. I am an extremely lonely misfit and I am near 40. I have lost the central concept of my life: spirituality. My father brought me up in the light of the truth, but he never was baptised. Before he died, alone in a hospital, he told me he felt betrayed that Armagedon had not come. He was 76 when he died. His dad had introduced him into the truth before he died, alienated from everyone too. I don't know what to say. I have put my life into the hands of Jehovah seeking a physical complement. I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed. I feel really bad. I am in a very bad position. I don't know where to begin. I wish someone would love me. I wish someone would understand me. This last thing was the thing that turned me away... brothers and sisters who were elders and even annointed, did not have any understanding of me though guided by Jehovah who watched me all the time. I felt alone within the congregation and outside the hall. Now my parents are dead and I have no past except what haunts me. And I feel I have no future. I feel really bad.