FedUp, my heart hurts just reading that. The lack of real love is what first woke me up. Of course, I had to start reading books on emotional abuse and narcissism to learn that what I knew my whole life was NOT real love. The "love" that JWs show is so abusive and just disgusting to me now.
Your parents didn't deserve any of that. They showed real love, or at least in instances they seemed to, by reaching out and doing things for others, helping them with real help, not a damn propaganda filled book. There are sincere people that know love that are stuck in that pathetic cult. It only makes it harder to watch. I'm so sorry.