Ha, when I was still in and trying desperately to hang on I was wrestling with a decision to keep trying to fit in. I was trying so hard to fit the mold. I was talking about it with my wife while cleaning a house, went out to the van while she finished mopping, and suddenly I heard a little girl's voice belting out "let it go". I looked all around and in all of the years we had cleaned there I had never noticed the play set in back of the neighbor's house across the street, and certainly never saw any kids. In a moment of deep thought and concern with a decision to make the song came through. My wife even got me a keychain with "let it go" engraved on it. It proved to be a valuable phrase and I never knew the words above. It's very fitting.
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"Let It Go" describes leaving the immediate reality and path of leaving JWs
by Bad_Wolf ini was at disney and when the song was on for a show it seemed to describe one leaving.
here are lyrics and my thoughts in ().
the snow glows white on the mountain tonightnot a footprint to be seen.a kingdom of isolation, (immediate isolation when entire social network cut off and shuns)and it looks like i'm the queen (only one alone)the wind is howling like this swirling storm insidecouldn't keep it in;heaven knows i've tried (start of waking up to break free of jw cult).
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last psychology session tomorrow
by Phoebe inso tomorrow is my last appointment with my psychologist.
we are going to commemorate it by giving each other a letter.. sept 2016 i sat, a quivering wreck, in her waiting room.
i was terrified.
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dubstepped
I love this and that you no longer feel ashamed. You are so strong to be able to overcome all of this that you should never feel shame. Many people never overcome even one of the things you've mentioned here, whether it be physical, sexual, emotional, or religious abuse. And yet here you are with your head held high. You're an incredible person and you deserve to celebrate it.
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Help! Mike & Kim videos all being deleted by Youtube
by mrmagic indue to watchtower flagging the mike & kim videos on youtube for copyright, youtube is giving them 6 days before they are shutting down their entire youtube channel.
can you help with a mass downloading program and then reuploading them on a mirror ?
would hate to lose all those good videos!
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dubstepped
@Fisherman - Your god is a monster that gives women as spoils of his wars, smashes babies on rocks, destroys animals in floods that did nothing to deserve it, and that is watching people on this earth suffer and die to prove some sort of point as pawns in his game. So screw your god. He's not just, he just claims power and people like you cower because you're afraid, the real fear of god, not because he's just. God has no place in this discussion. This is about legal technicalities.
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Help! Mike & Kim videos all being deleted by Youtube
by mrmagic indue to watchtower flagging the mike & kim videos on youtube for copyright, youtube is giving them 6 days before they are shutting down their entire youtube channel.
can you help with a mass downloading program and then reuploading them on a mirror ?
would hate to lose all those good videos!
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dubstepped
@vienne - If it makes you feel any better, those people that downloaded your book likely didn't cost you money as they probably wouldn't have purchased anyway. Those people typically don't, they only take what they can get for free, so they weren't your market anyway. Just another way of seeing it. I've seen it a lot with digital products. It does still feel bad though.
Usually companies will send a letter first telling people to take certain materials down. I would think that Mike and Kim, who I've never watched, could probably just get rid of the copyrighted content within their videos and remake them, unless of course their videos are dominated by that material. If they didn't beforehand, they should have really done research into what can be used. I know that I wanted to let my interviewees pick a song that they liked for my podcast "shunned" that I'd play at the end but after research I can't even play a clip, even though doing so would actually promote people listening to those songs, maybe even purchasing them.
Ultimately I love that the Watchtower is spending time and energy on this though. I love seeing them waste time and show how much they care about what apostates do.
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My Mothers Ultimate Rejection
by What Now? ini went into my mother's office to leave her a small note to say that we love and miss her and would love to get together.
i found this on her desk.
this is jehovah's witnesses.
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@Stephane - I respect your feelings on it too, like you said it is very personal and varies in our experiences. I'm glad to hear that you had such good experiences and see it that way. I wish I and many others could say the same.
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My Mothers Ultimate Rejection
by What Now? ini went into my mother's office to leave her a small note to say that we love and miss her and would love to get together.
i found this on her desk.
this is jehovah's witnesses.
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dubstepped
This is disgusting but it's an example of how many JW parents view their children. We were objects to be controlled, little reflections in the pool of their narcissistic selves. Should we fail to be who they wanted us to be then they choose to throw us away like trash in favor of an ideology that saves their own ass in the grand scheme of things, calling it "loyalty to Jehovah" to deflect from the reality. So many of us have become un-persons, the shunned, and it's a tough place to be.
If I remember correctly (don't have time to look) you wrote one of the most beautiful letters to your family when you left the cult. You showed love. They showed their ass. You can walk away the better person. Unlike the poster above I will do nothing further for the monsters that brought me into a cult and then controlled me and cost me so much of my life, no matter their intent. If my family comes out I'll be there and all will be forgiven. As long as they are shunning me they get nothing from me. I got sucked back in one time when my dad died and ultimately that experience was traumatic in it's own way. They don't get to pull me in and out or to have anything from me going forward as that's just more control from them. I want the best for them but the best is leaving the cult and then we can talk in freedom. I won't be shackled to their toxicity again.
You're a good person. I'm sorry this happened to you. ((hugs))
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Today is my two year shuniversary
by kairos inglad it isn't the 1200's...https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbtad2c08xu3-25-89 to 9-10-15.. today is my two year shuniversary since they executed me for apostasy..
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dubstepped
Congrats man! Our two year just hit on September 2. I remember you leaving around the same time. We're shun-buddies.
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Free to sin but still cannot bring myself to do it
by sinboi inhave da'd myself nearly 3 months ago.
now i am part of this world but i feel myself the odd one out.
something inside me is still blocking me to do the things i have been longing to do while i was still a jw, such as attending birthday parties, sex, etc.... just last nite, i was on the way to attend a birthday party.
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It takes time to break down everything you ever believed or felt. Brainwashing doesn't just disappear with a DA letter (congrats from a fellow DA'd person btw). Just live your life on your terms for where you are now. Keep breaking down those beliefs with research and in time your feelings will come around. We couldn't do Christmas or Halloween out first year but we did birthdays and Thanksgiving. Take your time. You don't have to just jump into another cult (culture) of that around you. Be kind to yourself and take your time.
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NFL season
by Are you serious infor the first time in my life i get to fully enjoy the nfl season without missing games i really want to see because of meetings and service!😀 go seahawks!.
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I've been catching up on things, mainly rest after a 6 day workweek this week, and watching football all day long. It is glorious. Enjoy life my friend!
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dubstepped
If friendship with the world equals enmity with god wouldn't that kind of mean that those who are out are therefore enemies of god. That would seem to be a Watchtower corporation stance.