Hebrews 6:4-8 For it is impossible as regards those who have once all been enlightened, and who have tasted the heavenly free gift, and who have become partakers of holy spirit, and who have tasted the fine word of God and powers of the coming system of things, but who have fallen away, to revive them again to repentance, because they impale the Son of God afresh for themselves and expose him to public shame. For example, the ground that drinks in the rain which often comes upon it, and that then brings forth vegetation suitable to those for whom it is also cultivated, receives in return a blessing from God. But if it produces thorns an thistles, it is rejected and is near to being cursed; and it ends up with being burned.
Your negativety only gives me strength and more faith. This is a perfect example as to what your husband was trying to say. People who turn away from God's word are worse off then people who never knew it. Apostasy is one of the worst things that you can do. It is so easier to turn away from God's word than it is to follow it. I tell you that apostasy is just the blind leading the blind, because tell me what positive things do they teach. They are leading people into destruction and if you are one of them I think you should look carefully at what they are teaching you.