So Oompa.......
Reads like you just might be toking a little dried leaf! Need something else to take the place of alcochol? If so..........you just blew the time you spent in rehab and that tells me that you are on the road to self destruction. Addiction is addiction. Take it from someone who has been there,
There's always someone reaching out with a hand of help to those like you.......but if you don't want it for yourself........then what else is there.
Me.....HappyDad........I've worked with enough people in addiction to know that I can't get personally involved. My attitude today (no matter how much the bleeding hearts may hate this) is for you or whoever doesn't want a sober and clean life is to just continue on the road to whatever end is waiting for you. I really care for them and you, but to worry about you? Nahhhhh! You've chosen your own way to death.
I just wish you would realize that your life is at stake buddy and I hope you can overcome. You might not love yourself, but others love you.
NOW.....I'm really hoping that your title of this thread is a joke and that I've just finished blowing smoke for no reason at all. That is what would make me really happy.
HappyDad