and thus i choose not to follow my obvious childish infatuations. it seems that every
it seems it is a common belief everyone including my friends that i do not know what i want, ergo, i give up. i do not care what anyone else has to say, im truly fed up. now i rid myself of these pitifull human emotions for good. i've had enuf trying to look for the illusions of love and its scary realisations, i am quite obviously not meant to function like the rest of the lemming teenage society and have no place amongst them. im too different and will never be accepted by society it seems. if this "god" does exist, he's made a pretty bang up job of making my place as disjointed as possible. thank u "god" for being the one person bent on making my life somewhat miserable.
undoubtly replies would say me too young and naive to understand anything, well from what little i understand, im pretty p!$$ scared of finding out the rest. this world is a horrible place that filters the weak and misunderstood from an ideal utopic state that is shared by the rest of humanity. i, unfortunately, just happen to be one of those people that does not "fit in". thus i swear, after having completed my studies, i will be on the first trip to a tibetan monastery to live a life of solitude and silence (bout the same it was going to end up anyway).
I'm sorry to say that even you people have brought untold discomfort to my already unstable mindset, i apologise truly if this does offend but too often i have been told "the truth hurts", and boy does it.
I thank u all for sheding some light on the situation, I am indeed grateful.
and with that i bid u all farewell and good luck.
Sincerely, VampMonk.