Fleeman, I appreciate your anxiety attacks. I've had a few, too.
I was especially concerned with the Gulf War, 9/11, and now our war with Iraq. I vaguely recall something about the King of the North and the King of the South going at it just before the Big A. Seems like we were taught that the KoA was US and KoS was Arabia. (I may have my kings mixed up... I never did play chess very well ;)
One thing that has helped me was when I was over at my parents house several years ago. My dad was a MS, on the JC, blah blah blah, and of course he confronted me on no longer being a JW and my life as a worldly person. I was calmly able to tell him that I will stand before Jehovah and Jesus on judgement day and account for myself. It was the first time I ever saw my dad speachless!
(The other time was later that day when we were talking about my alcoholism and I explained that I don't process alcohol normally just as he does not process sugar normall - diabetic - he never thought of it that way before - of course it's always been a moral issue.)
I do believe that what we know as Armageddon will happen. The end of this world as we know it is prophesied in other cultures. Those prophesies appear to be "relatively" soon to materialize, as do some of the Bible's. And there's not one thing I can do about it. So I don't worry about it. *
I just hope it will be after 2031 when I'm 74 and couldn't give a rat's arse.
Hugs and love
Brenda
* Serenity Prayer
God, grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The Courage to change the things I can
and the Wisdom to know the difference
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* My version
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
and the Widsom to hid the bodies so they will not be found