Posts by Cunfusious

Looking for people from the Rogue River, OR Congregation ages 25-30ish

by Cunfusious in

jw
friends

i used to go to the rogue river congregation in oregon and have been looking for all my friends that went there as well....anyone?

i am 27 now so all of them will be that age as well since we suffered together.

email me!

Cunfusious

I used to go to the Rogue River Congregation in Oregon and have been looking for all my friends that went there as well....Anyone? I am 27 now so all of them will be that age as well since we suffered together. email me! [email protected]

Michelle

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Convicted Rapist Brother Thompson strikes AGAIN!

by Nathan Natas in

http://www.komotv.com/stories/32730.htm

convicted rapist arrested again in u-district attack.

august 24, 2004 .

Cunfusious

This is for SwordOfJah :I am just curious, I see that you are constantly posting in favor of the JW's. Are you here to preach and defend them or what? Does this count in your hours out in service for the month? I understand that people change their ways and go to God for love and support. But what I see here is a rapist who, at his first chance out, struck again even AFTER he was studying to be a JW. From what I can see he was so weak and down on his luck and someone in the JW felt they could scoop him right up and all would be OK and forgiven. What a load of crap!

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Permanent loss from being brought up in JW

by Cunfusious in

for the past few hours i have been reading through this forum and an overwhelming sadness came over me.

for a long time i thought just getting out and not being part of the organization would be the "escape" that being happy in a normal life provided.

born and raised (well 17 was it for me) under the tight grips of this organization has made my life a constant battle over right and wrong.

Cunfusious

For the past few hours I have been reading through this forum and an overwhelming sadness came over me. For a long time I thought just getting out and not being part of the organization would be the "escape" that being happy in a normal life provided. Born and raised (well 17 was it for me) under the tight grips of this organization has made my life a constant battle over right and wrong. I know the difference, thats not the issue. It has nothing to do with choice, its the guilt that gets you. But why? I am no longer part of that religion and will never be again. So why am I torn so much when doing things that are considered unholy and morally wrong in their eyes, but completely NORMAL in everyone elses eyes?

When I was 11 my dad decided to take a turn in his life that to this day has affected everyone in our family. My older sister disowned him. I was inseparable from him and I paid attention to everything I saw. And that something was very wrong and he was not going to stay much longer. I remember coming home from school one day and I saw that his brush and comb were gone. I knew he was not coming back. He chose to be with another JW who was a close friend of my mother. This other lady, whom I love dearly, was in a troubled marriage to one of those typical Elders who covered up the secrets that went on behind closed doors. He broke her nose and beat her sons to the point where "fleeing" with my dad, who was the only man who ever cared for her in a normal, healthy way, was the only option.

Then came the "announcement". I remember I was not allowed to go, none of us were. I have two older sisters and a younger brother. We knew it was going to be that night because they told my mom. After that we were always referred to as the poor (name w/held) kids. The ones whose father ran out on them to commit adultry and live in sin. WOW, gotta say, at 11 that was WAY TOO much for me to handle.

I never blamed my dad because I knew it was the way out. At the ripe old age of 27 and my dad still with her, 16 years later, gives me some kind of peace knowing they were wrong about them. The problems I struggle with today is finding my place with God. I cannot go into a church without feeling like a Pagan or a traitor. Just last week we accompanied a good friend to her church, a Penicostal church of all places. I feel so completely confused that I dont know if I can change my views because of the things that were imbedded in my brain from being a JW. It has caused great distress and a sense of loss in my life. Everyone needs and wants to have a place with God and Jesus, but when you have so many out there to choose from, it becomes rather depressing. I dont put other beliefs down. I have found that just because the JW's feel that everyone besides them are Pagan doesnt mean they are! Its killing me inside.

I have gone on and on. I just want some peace of heart and mind that others have found a way of having God in their lives without feeling like a Satan worshipper.

Thanks

Michelle