Josh,
I'm really impressed with your bravery at eventually coming out. It's really to bad that you had to go threw everything you did to finally figure out that he made you that way and that you are perfect as you are. I can understand the isolation you have felt from people who don't understand and are forbidden to ever understand. My hat goes off to you, for realizing how special you are and sharing your story for other gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people within the religion and everywhere who will someday if not already have to except and stand up for who they are.
Cheers