Posts by Billygoat

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Why am I not bitter?

by DannyBloem in

many people on this board seems to be a bit bitter and angry.

many do feel a form of hate towards the gb or even witnesses in general.. i do understand that many feel this way, some have all rigths to be bitter.. wy do i not feel like that?

i am not bitter, nor hate the gb or witnesses.

Billygoat

I really wish you guys could get over this "unforgiving attitude" You remind me of THEM.

You know, it's just me, but I have a feeling that God is quite big enough to handle my anger. And I think since he knows what my experiences are, what my pain has been like, and what it's like to lose what I've lost, that he understands and accepts that I'm hurt, angry and sometimes bitter.

I really wish you'd let people heal at their own pace instead of project onto me how I should behave. You remind of THEM.

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Disposable People

by MerryMagdalene in

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since my mom decided she needed to put full shunning back into effect again (an unconscious new year's resolution to be a better jw?

), i've been ransacked by a whole bunch of emotions which have been gradually resolving into thoughts.

the sense of being completely disposable, expendable, replaceable.

Billygoat

Anyone reading this pester Merry to post some of her drawings for us.

Merry, being an artist myself, I'd love to see your work!!! (Although photography is my current choice of medium, pencil and paint were my first loves.

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Disposable People

by MerryMagdalene in

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friends

since my mom decided she needed to put full shunning back into effect again (an unconscious new year's resolution to be a better jw?

), i've been ransacked by a whole bunch of emotions which have been gradually resolving into thoughts.

the sense of being completely disposable, expendable, replaceable.

Billygoat

((((((Merry))))))

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Why am I not bitter?

by DannyBloem in

many people on this board seems to be a bit bitter and angry.

many do feel a form of hate towards the gb or even witnesses in general.. i do understand that many feel this way, some have all rigths to be bitter.. wy do i not feel like that?

i am not bitter, nor hate the gb or witnesses.

Billygoat

Danny,

I don't know your story, but I have lost much to no longer being a JW. So I have had to work hard to overcome my bitterness.

Have you ever lost a loved one to the blood issue?
Have you ever been shunned by your parents or siblings?
Have you ever had someone say they wished they never had you to begin with?
Have you ever had someone say they wished you were dead?
Have you ever had three slimy elders sit in front of you and judge you while they ask you detailed questions about a sexual act?
Have you ever had your best friend walk by you without even acknowledging your presence because you were deemed unworthy of their attention?
Have you ever had someone tell you that GOD does not love you because you don't follow their manmade rules?

These are just a few reason why I've been so hurt and have a hard time NOT being bitter.

Andi

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MY PARENTS WANT TO CELEBRATE THEIR BIRTHDAY!

by Mary in

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i've decided my parents are way cool...........both of them are still in the borg, but my father is turning 70 years old next month and he wants to celebrate his birthday!

i was stunned when he said that and am already making plans.

plus (here's another shocker), my sister is also turning 40 next month and my mother said last night that we should take her out for her birthday seeing as she's turning the big 4-0!

Billygoat

((((Mary)))) Give your dad and sister great big birthday hugs from the board!

Andi

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By way of an apology...

by Tez in

to all jwd posters that i have felt go overboard with your bitterness toward the borg!

see below a copy of part of my letter to my son (he posts on here when he gets chance to).

i now fully understand your anger and your desire to try and get jw's out of this blood guilty cult.

Billygoat

Tez,

No need to apologize as we've all been in your shoes dear!

This is probably a great lesson to have learned: that we don't always see the "big picture" of someone else's perspective. The JW culture is so quick to judge without having all the facts. You think when we leave the bOrg, that this method of looking at the world would automatically stop. But it doesn't. Old habits die hard. I am still trying to learn this myself, even after having been out for almost 16 years now! But epiphanies like the one you just had, are huge "mile markers" to us. Always use it as a touchstone - remember what it feels like and what your thoughts are when you don't understand where someone else is coming from. There is rarely a situation where we see the WHOLE picture.

Love,

Andi

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I'm an Organ Donor

by prophecor in

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Billygoat

Yes, I'm a donor. There is no point in my salvagable vital organs going to waste. Why not share my apostateness with others that need it more than I?

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What did I just do?

by mrsjones5 in

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last sunday after the sermon i happen to see a lady who was knitting.

i went to say hi and comment on her choice of yarn and how well she was coming in her knitting (last year she and i and a few other ladies in my church went on a women's retreat whereupon she took up knitting.

) as we were talking i mentioned something about the shawl ministry (http://www.shawlministry.com/) and if she had heard about it.

Billygoat

There are so many opportunties, so many ways to serve, it feels confusing at times but it's cool cuz it's not all focused on preaching.

Josie,

This is right on. What makes this so fun is that we can find ways WE enjoy serving the church, the community, and God. Just like a good parent, He wants us to use our natural skillset at it's highest potential. I'd like to recommend a book to you. It's by Max Lucado called, "Cure for the Common Life: Living in your Sweet Spot". It is exactly the kind of book you might find interesting as you figure out your spiritual gift. If you want I can lend you my copy. I just finished reading it a few weeks ago and it's just gathering dust now.

http://www.maxlucado.com/cure/

Andi

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Anybody ever had their Aura photo taken?

by Bumble Bee in

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i had mine done a few weeks ago, and also my chakras.. my colours for my aura photograph were predominately green with some blue.. if you've had yours done, what colours showed up, and do you think the interpretation was correct?.

bb.

Billygoat

Where can I go to get my auro photographed? Is it one of those booths at the mall?

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What did I just do?

by mrsjones5 in

jw
friends

last sunday after the sermon i happen to see a lady who was knitting.

i went to say hi and comment on her choice of yarn and how well she was coming in her knitting (last year she and i and a few other ladies in my church went on a women's retreat whereupon she took up knitting.

) as we were talking i mentioned something about the shawl ministry (http://www.shawlministry.com/) and if she had heard about it.

Billygoat

LOL! Well, Ms. Josie, it looks like you might have a new church project on your hands. LOL!

Like you, being a friendly person gets me into trouble like that now and again. At our last church, I was being nominated/volunteered left and right to do things, be on committees, etc. And being the nice person I am, I have a hard time saying NO. So before long I was in over my head and doing stuff that I hated. It completely took the joy out of church for me. When I finally caught my breath, I realized there is no shame in "just saying no". But then again, there have been times in my life where I was "put" into a project and I was blessed more than I ever realized. So stick your toe in the water and see how it goes. I have a feeling God has some really cool things to say to you and has some really cool ideas of how to use you to encourage/uplift others.

Blessings,

Andi