As a former JW, I remember being afraid of Jehovah seeing me, or the congregation some how knowing I stepped outside of this imaginary bubble of everything related to 'The Truth'. I thought having knowledge of other religions would somehow go against my the Jehovah. So I would often avoid any type of conversation, books, TV shows, movies. Anything that wasn't essentially part of the religion. I would happily preach about the organization and Jehovah, etc... I was completely brainwashed, as was most everyone in my family. I began questioning the contradictions between the books and the bible and I was immediately approached by an elder the next time I went to a meeting... a 60 year old man approaching at 12-13 year old girl and telling her not to question the religion. It was weird.
I basically felt like I was on a tether. I started in at a very young age, because my mom thought it would save us all.
Once I accepted the thought that I could have my own thoughts, and nobody could own these except me... I was able to question the religion enough to just stop going. I was going non-stop to every meeting, bible study, out in service, etc.. And then one day at the ripe old age of 13, going on 14 I just stopped. Flat out refused to go, and it was one of the best decisions I have ever made in my life. I felt free for the first time.