I was also an elder when I learned the truth about The Truth. It was hell. I did not feel I could immediately stand down, I had to lay the groundwork, but I did a few months later. My conscience would not let me continue.
Since then I have not been out in F/S , or answered up, nothing. The elders have let me be.
Of course at first I wanted to help my friends also see the light, but I realised that was not possible without ending up d/fd . I had long discussions with my wife but that’s all. Like the rest of them, they are unmoved by the facts. I now conclude that it is harder to convince a believing JW of the falsehood of their way than it is to convince a worldly person to accept JW beliefs.
Now I respect their right to believe it if they want , they can see all that I can see.