I am really sorry to hear about your situation goingthruthemotions. I know it doesn't help a lot but you're not alone. Even for those of us whos spouse didn't wake up but also isn't a complete WT drone have had our relationship changed and aren't the same. It's painful and it hurts to watch a relationship get damaged or completely crumble over religion.
Please hang in there and keep sharing your thoughts on the board because you're not alone. There are so many here that have lost so much - this can be a great place of sharing and healing.