WLG, I'm glad you're finding some ways to move forward. Sounds like you're thinking pretty clearly, which is great.
Excercise is a good thing mentally, so is getting out now and then. You sound like someone easy to get along with so hopefully you'll pick up a friend here and there and have more people to chat with on the phone or go out and do stuff with. Sounds like you're going to do fine.
---"Making myself remember why – remembering being lied to and controlled and mentally abused. This makes me angry and reminds me that no way in hell am I going to let someone else take advantage of me like that again, and also reminds me why I am doing this."---
That's good that you're remembering the past, but not dwelling on it. Live your life for the future and be careful to not live in the past. So much that will be coming along in your life and so many good times coming in the future, I know from experience. I'm fortunate to have my daughter so I'm not alone, but raising a child is a little different than having a partner. Being self employed doesn't help but many of the things you mentioned are things that I do also, and it works out well. I'm at the point where I appreciate the privacy I have and the ability to do what I want when I want. Life really starts looking up after a while. It will.
DITTO!!! -April