I was an active Jehovah's Witness for 13 years. I raised two children in this faith. My husband was a Ministial Servant. Both of our children were born with blood disorders that warranted them to have major surgeries. We went through the illness, the crisis and surgeries "abstaining from blood". I found that the longer that we remained within this cult the more I saw false teachings and witnessed terrible wrong doings by the Elders. After living in the "grey area" for a period of time, I "disassociated" myself from the congregation. The Elders decided that it would be in their best interest to "disfellowship" me and my husband. I then endured the loss of all my friends. The painful experience of everyone turning their backs on me was horrible! I went into a deep depression. Realization really took hold with me to see how unchristian this cult was and I felt so sorry for those that I left behind. It still sickens me to think of how good, kind, loving people are manilipated.