Oh my word Tex...I am usually the calmest person in traffic. It does not get to me and today I was cussing and highly irritated today. So you are saying this is normal. My poor kids just looked at me like I lost my mind.
Sparkplug
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Does Anyone mind if I freak out?
by Sparkplug inok, i have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go.
so this last year, maybe year and a half, i have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that i sat next to for 4 years died.
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Does Anyone mind if I freak out?
by Sparkplug inok, i have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go.
so this last year, maybe year and a half, i have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that i sat next to for 4 years died.
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Badger: Cry tonight and Party for the posotive in a couple weeks when it is all done. This too shall pass and head into the blob of a mushy mass known as my lost memories. Great having PTSD
GBL-Thank you. We will get to know each other...
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Can you write a JW Motto...?
by Sparkplug insomeone sent these state motto's to me and i was curious to know if any of us could make some up for the jw's?
i personally will have to think on it for days, but i know some are very quick witted and this could be fun!
i posted the state mottos to get us started.
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NWT-Very Funny
Are we there yet?
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Does Anyone mind if I freak out?
by Sparkplug inok, i have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go.
so this last year, maybe year and a half, i have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that i sat next to for 4 years died.
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Merry...Thanks for the poem.
and Out...How did you know I have not been sleeping? That was humor just in case. I took your advice and tried some chamomille tea and melatonin. I think I will sleep now. Thank you again.
Im all right. Suck it up and keep going. I feel a lot better now that I have cried. Feels good. Been way too long.
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Does Anyone mind if I freak out?
by Sparkplug inok, i have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go.
so this last year, maybe year and a half, i have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that i sat next to for 4 years died.
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Thanks Out and Tale, Just needed to vent. Your kind words and wisdom feel like a hug to me. Thanks
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Does Anyone mind if I freak out?
by Sparkplug inok, i have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go.
so this last year, maybe year and a half, i have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that i sat next to for 4 years died.
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Sparkplug
Yeah Tried to talk to my brother...but being the JW he is, he started to let me know all about the ressurection and paradise earth. It all boils down to being about reasons he feels I need to come back to Jehovah...
Hate to offend anyone, but it is a crock of crap. I tell Gammie that she will see her lord in heaven. I tell my brother that we will just have to see. I tell myself that worm bait is not too bad. I really do believe we will just have to see. but to cheer people up, sometimes I have to act as if I really believe there is a heaven. A God, A hell and a ressurection. To tell the truth, I don't believe in anything as far as religion. I feel I am spiritual, but religion and I ...well we don't get along.
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Does Anyone mind if I freak out?
by Sparkplug inok, i have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go.
so this last year, maybe year and a half, i have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that i sat next to for 4 years died.
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Sparkplug
Ok, I have not had a lot of experience with death and the one loved one...really loved like a brother ...person that passed in 2002 was my first close, hurt your heart friend to go. So This last year, maybe year and a half, I have worked with the same 14 to 16 people.
Between all of us we have had at least twenty loved ones die, and one of our group that I sat next to for 4 years died. So Was it two weeks ago, I lost an old co-worker, and then a few days later another.
Now then as if that is not enough...I had a third acquaintance die last week and was dis-invited to the memorial.
So with this said and death being a very volotile subject with me.... I get yet another call tonight. An older lady who lived next to me for years and is my "adopted" moms best friend for 20 years has died a few minutes ago. She brought me homeade soup and baked bread for the kiddos and I when I was DF'ed the second time. I just saw her At the beginning of the year and had the longest hug from her.
Now mind you my Gammie, her best friend, is in the hospital dying and was told 3 months ago that she had 2 months to live. She is in a friggin hospital bed and bleeding internally. But tough old bat that she is ...she is hanging on. So now, I have to call her when her meds wear off tomorrow and comfort this loved one who is going to die any day also.
So does anybody besides me find this just blooming mind numbing. I feel kind of in shock. It is too much at once and I feel my brain shutting down. This is a moment when a person really needs hels, and here I sit doing homework, taxes, chatting and trying to become an alcoholic for the night. But unfortunately, I am wound too tight to let anything reduce this stress level.
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Can you write a JW Motto...?
by Sparkplug insomeone sent these state motto's to me and i was curious to know if any of us could make some up for the jw's?
i personally will have to think on it for days, but i know some are very quick witted and this could be fun!
i posted the state mottos to get us started.
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Merry... I have been waiting gort you. It is really quite witty! And Funny at that.
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Can you write a JW Motto...?
by Sparkplug insomeone sent these state motto's to me and i was curious to know if any of us could make some up for the jw's?
i personally will have to think on it for days, but i know some are very quick witted and this could be fun!
i posted the state mottos to get us started.
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Sparkplug
I meant...
"Goats need not apply"
Funny as Hades!
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Can you write a JW Motto...?
by Sparkplug insomeone sent these state motto's to me and i was curious to know if any of us could make some up for the jw's?
i personally will have to think on it for days, but i know some are very quick witted and this could be fun!
i posted the state mottos to get us started.
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Sparkplug
Englishman that is excellent!
"Goats need not apply"