Obviously, I cannot speak in detail as that is "mens business" but all I can say is that the natural world around us has a lot more going on than we or at least I realised.
I too believe that there is more...LOTS more...than we understand or realize. And if we just open our minds up a bit more and not be held down with what men teaches or the way they want us to live our lives, then it will be that much closer to the answer...in my opinion.
I did not choose this path and was terrified at times from the dreams, premonitions, the, out of controlness and being able to see "sickness"of the spirit in people.
I think you may have been terrified because of what was told to you. "Whoaaa, be careful not to allow demons in you" and "The demons will take control of you"....in this modern day Christian saturated world, everything is associated with demons. Now I don't believe in demons. I believe that it's people allowing bad things to happen...lots of bad energy. And perhaps even mischievous spirits. But not an all powerful Devil that can control you at your every move. Don't believe that.
Sometimes I thought I was imagining things, going crazy but others have been with me at times and have seen animals do strange things around me. One recent example was a pod of dolphins followed us up a beach. My friend who was with me laughed when I told him they are reincarnated blackfellas who save any aboriginal person drowning. He went surfing while I sat and sang to them. They stayed an hour in a tight group. I decided to swim and called to them to introduce myself and that I was was only visiting. As soon as I was in deep enough water, they raced over and circled me. Twenty dolphins. Mothers, babies and the big males. I dived under to see them.
WOW...what a wonder experience. That must have taken your breath away from amazement.
I feel uncomfortable even telling this simple story as often it is talking into the wind of the uninitiated but I hope and have confidence that someone will read this and find a spark ignited.
I can understand because I have similar stories of "strange things" happening. And I normally don't tell my stories because I get..."well you were just seeing things" or "that was the demon"...Sheeeesh.
But I will tell my story now...
About 5 months ago, I lost my favorite bird Cheeko. I was so crushed and felt so responsible for her death. One night I layed down and was still hurting so bad about my bird being gone that I felt so sick. And then out of the corner of my eye I saw something. I turned and looked and there was my Grandfather in a red flannel shirt and jeans standing over me and smiling. Then he held his hand up and Cheeks flew on it. He knodded as in approval and showing me that Cheeko was quite ok. Ever since that vision, I've felt a since of peace. I even created a support forum for people grieving over their loss. It was a major turning point in my views of things. So I'm convienced that there is more to this world than we know it...I just don't know exactly what that is. And maybe won't know in this life...but it will reveal itself sooner or later. And I'm cool with that.
One last thing. I have stated this before but I believe that people need to be careful what path they choose. Tickling the ego is not a solid reason to inquire into the under world of the spirit.
I agree with this...I don't conjure up the spirit world. I do rituals for my sake. For my Divine. I don't "worship" them...just respect them. And I respect the spiritual world as well. Personally I follow the Shaman's way without focusing on the magick. I do what my heart tells me to do. And 9 times out of 10, if I don't listen to that little voice in my head I end up making the wrong choices. So I listen to me...to them. I pay more attention to what nature is trying to tell me. And it's such a relief knowing that it's MY path, not "so and so's". But MY personal path.
I love these chats... Very refreshing!
Froggie