I was 16, and had no idea what I was doing.
wanderlustguy
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What age were you baptised? Do you regret it?
by doodle-v ini would have gotten baptised at the first "special assembly day" but i got sick just a few days before.
so i got baptised at the d.c.that same year instead.
i regret it, but at the time i thought i was doing the right thing, i sincerely believed i was dedicating my life to serving god.
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About last night... :o)
by wanderlustguy ini guess you guys got the equivalent of the 2:am drunk phone call.
was wollowing in my grief last night over the end of a relationship i didn't want to see end.
i had talked about it before here : http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/85555/1.ashx.
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wanderlustguy
There are a lot of little things. I'm not bitter or angry at her, just very very sad. I feel like there's a hole right through me, and what hurts the most is I'm sure she thinks it's no big deal to me. It's all I can do to keep form going there, but I don't want her to hurt because of me anymore. She deserves to be happy, even if it's not with me, no matter how bad I want it to be the other way around.
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Friends without faces
by Gadget infriends without faces by joe k .
we sit and we type, and we stare at our screens .
we all have to wonder, what this possibly means.
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wanderlustguy
Thank you.
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About last night... :o)
by wanderlustguy ini guess you guys got the equivalent of the 2:am drunk phone call.
was wollowing in my grief last night over the end of a relationship i didn't want to see end.
i had talked about it before here : http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/85555/1.ashx.
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wanderlustguy
I guess you guys got the equivalent of the 2:am drunk phone call. Was wollowing in my grief last night over the end of a relationship I didn't want to see end. I had talked about it before here : http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/85555/1.ashx
Anyway, everything finally came to a head for real and now it's all over. This was the first time I ever had so many needs fulfilled by a single person, I had cut off all other support people, basically said "this one is it". As time progressed, and especially after "my awakening" to the truth about my beliefs, the stress grew almost weekly. I wanted to be ok, be able to let my guard down and let someone all the way in, and really tried so very hard.
It's really a shame to me because she was the most genuine person I have ever met. But at the same time so absolute and black and white it was a struggle to really discuss abstract issues or any alternative ideas (especially about God) with ease. So it's the right thing, but it's not the easy thing, that's for sure. It was nice to be with someone who knew nothing at all about my past, but then the lack of support while learning about why I am the way I am has trumped it. Also I do not see this need to "associate"(for lack of a better term) with you guys going away any time soon, nor do I think it should. and it's a real sore spot as she has felt if we were the way we were supposed to be I wouldn't ever need to talk to anyone else about these things. In my opinion though, talking to a "normal" person about The Truth is like a woman trying to tell a man what PMS is like.
Hell, I've got so much baggage I'm suprised anybody could stand to be in a committed relationship with me, but hey, the dream of it was very nice while it was good. OK, I'm done whining for today...I'm gonna go kick a puppy.
WLG
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I got your appeal for attention right here....
by wanderlustguy inthat's right, i'm pissed.
you guys are supposed to be pn here so much you're blowing the damn board to bits every night.
wtf?
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wanderlustguy
Thanks folks, I'll talk about it more tomorrow. I realy appreciate it. Short version is I lost someone I really cared for, but I couldn't give her what she needs from someone. I wanted to do it but just wasn't there. I'm not even sure how to explain what it is, but I guess a start would be I would have to "get over" my feeling about the org and just forget about this need I feel to talk with you guys and one day meet some of you.
It's more than that, but that's a start, I'm nowhere near a place in my life where I can live happily ever after just yet...and don't know if I ever will be.
Thanks again for being there.
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I got your appeal for attention right here....
by wanderlustguy inthat's right, i'm pissed.
you guys are supposed to be pn here so much you're blowing the damn board to bits every night.
wtf?
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wanderlustguy
Were you dating a librarian? Why staying away from Wordly women? How about Paragraph women? I think Chapter women are the absolute worst !!!
Maybe when you want a person to really have some depth instead of someone who will lay still, you'll know what I'm talking about. Go find someone else to try to fight.
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I got your appeal for attention right here....
by wanderlustguy inthat's right, i'm pissed.
you guys are supposed to be pn here so much you're blowing the damn board to bits every night.
wtf?
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wanderlustguy
He must be talking to BrownBoy / The Word....he's all confused
Not very nice dude. Maybe you've been through losing someone you love AFTER you leave the org so then your really alone like 100 times, right? Well I haven't and it hurts like a motherf*cker.
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I got your appeal for attention right here....
by wanderlustguy inthat's right, i'm pissed.
you guys are supposed to be pn here so much you're blowing the damn board to bits every night.
wtf?
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wanderlustguy
I just lost my first "real" relationship,as far as a no witness stuff at all person. Horrible. I think I may have to reccomend stayin away from "wordly women"
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I got your appeal for attention right here....
by wanderlustguy inthat's right, i'm pissed.
you guys are supposed to be pn here so much you're blowing the damn board to bits every night.
wtf?
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wanderlustguy
I did, I was trying to cut out the witness stuff, because it seemed to be messing other things up...but I'm starting to see why, and I think its good for me, but it's not easy.
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I got your appeal for attention right here....
by wanderlustguy inthat's right, i'm pissed.
you guys are supposed to be pn here so much you're blowing the damn board to bits every night.
wtf?
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wanderlustguy
Schweet, somebody is on here!
Going through post breakup stress disorder right now. It's amazing how this cult even affects your apostate life