It's funny you brought this up earlier in a similar post about what decisions you'd have made if not a jw. That girl had a similar experience as me except I made no attempt to be reinstated. I assumed it was some kind of cult but didn't know of any research, I was still afraid for years to look at apostate material but that was still enough for me never to look back. I got busy with living life but I think a little part of me insisted on having a career in the public eye so I could be a constant beacon to expose the lie that a persons life would crumble if leaving the org. I saw nothing but the opposite. I have started looking back recently though as its lingering effects became clear to me. nothing too serious, nothing like when I was a jw, but coming to terms with the way I was raised has also done a world of good for me.