I know what I'm doing IS right. Truth, my heart has led me unto this path, but my mind is what's gonna get me to the end of this road, and unto a new direction. It takes strength, but I know I'll make it.
Oh, by the way, I went to catholic mass this morning, hadn't done that in eons...I know all religions are MAN made, but in my opinion catholics have a real history...
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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ANYONE IN SUCCESSFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH JW
by Serena inhas anyone had any interfaith relationship with a jw that actually worked?
or are they all doomed from day one?
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Serena,
You should've listened to the good people on your last thread the "I feel so used" one. If you listened you wouldn't be in this mess now.
No, relationship with a JW can work unless one is willing to convert, and if you convert to his side, well, I'll save a straight-jacket for you in the funny farm! -
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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Thanks Andee!!!!!
My boyfriend called me up today and said that he is miserable without seeing me, he said he feels like he lost his best friend--he did--me. I know he called because he feels as lost as me without him, but it's not helping me to hear his voice, and it doesn't matter if we did try to work something out, I would be harassed to convert for the rest of my life with him. I miss him terribly though. I hope what I am doing is right.
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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I ended things with my boyfriend, and I am trying to salvage my own beliefs in God and stop crying for longer than 5 minutes. The worse part of this is I will never find another soul mate, he was(and is) my only true love, whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life with, but I can't be a witness.
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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I never felt helplessly doomed before studying JW. I used to be your ordinary rebellious catholic girl, and now all I can think about is the end of the world and me not being a perfect human,in the eyes of JEhovah. I'm sorry if I offended anyone, but my mind is just totally screwed up and I'm not sure if I can find an escape route. Sorry if I had offended you Erich, I'm just in alot of pain.
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Silliest thing that Witnesses told you was wrong?
by gilwarrior inthere are two things.
in the early and mid 80s there were witnesses saying that the cartoon characters the smurfs were not acceptable for witnesses.
i had two smurf cartoon books and my mother made me throw them away.
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Something that really shook me up was a picture I saw in the kingdom hall, it was purple and it said FEAR GOD in big letters. I ask a sister about it and she said it was the motto from last year??? Alrighty then, where's the exit!
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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Erich--
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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What is a dub?
There is only one God, it's the people's interpretation of it that you hate. I don't hate the JW God, I hate the people that created this bogus version of God. I hate the idiots at Bethel in Brooklyn who think? they are directly being communicating with God. I feel Bethel should be an insane assylum for the truly demented!! I tell you one thing, though, the awake magazine is a wonderful cat box liner! That is the only reason why I got the subscription!
And their is no windows at the hall just to remind the loyal ignorant slaves that once your in, there is no way out. I can't imagine living these peoples lives, they look forward to the end of the world! I tell ya one thing, if their is a hell, witnesses have front row seats. -
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Silliest thing that Witnesses told you was wrong?
by gilwarrior inthere are two things.
in the early and mid 80s there were witnesses saying that the cartoon characters the smurfs were not acceptable for witnesses.
i had two smurf cartoon books and my mother made me throw them away.
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1> Only 144,000 can go to heaven.
2> Only JW's can understand the bible.
3> God speaks from Brooklyn.
4> CAn anyone please tell me, why I am being discouraged from keeping my two door car?
5> I don't need a therapist I need to talk with the elders. -
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Depression is a way of life for JW's
by butalbee inthe more i studied, the more i got sucked into being a witness, the more depressed i've become.
i don't want to do anything anymore, i mean what is the sense: the end of days is upon us!
the more i became involved with witnesses, the more i felt that i was loosing a part of myself.
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I am not a JW, I was baptizied catholic when I was very young. I am or was studying, going to meetings, going door to door with JW's, and attending bible studies to please the family of the man who I love. I love him with all my heart, but after all I learned, what was crammed inside my head, all the religious convictions to live up to, to be this perfect human. I am not a JW YET, and they are already controlling every facet of my existence, what is right or wrong in Jehovah's eyes. Even my "dates" are being monitored, and I can't be alone with him or see him at inappropriate times or places. It's like being in a prison. THE TRUTH AS I SEE IT: ONLY PRISON'S HAVE WATCHTOWERS. I grew up loving God, not fearing his wrath, and believing Jesus is the savior, And maybe even more importantly, which I think is part of what is making me so depressed--my soul. I have a soul, not by any means immortal, but by all means an who I am on the inside, what I feel, the person I am.
My bible is not worded the same as theirs, some of the changes are subtle but isnn;t their something in the book of Revelations warning man who alter the word of God?? JW is a manmade religion, and this new light theory is a bunch of bullshit.
And as much as I love this man who I have been seeing for the past year or so, I can't become a witness. I'd rather die on a stake myself. And I told him how I feel, now it's his turn to compromise a part of himself or beliefs for me, if he can't, he's not worth it. It's all up to him now, as far as I'm concerned I'm done with him and the brainwashing. I need to find my sanity.
Tonight, was my last meeting. I spoke to the elders and they wanted me to seek the help of a ministral servant--what the hell is that???????? I told them what I really needed was a catholic priest and an exorism.