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  are you different on the net?

  by gilwarrior in

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  2. friends

  in real life i tend to be shy, but stern when i have to.

  i don't really show the way that i really am.

  sometimes i am moody and get anxious in social situations.

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  butalbee

  In real life I have to play a role--I have to act like I'm in control of my feelings and emotions. I shut them out. I try to pretend that nothing hurts or nobody hurts me with words or actions. I work with people and need to act like I am in cool and collective, even if I'm falling apart inside. There are times, when I can't hold back what I'm feeling, and I find myself "thinking out loud", that's when I get into trouble...
  But online, esp. here, I can be myself, I can say what I mean and really feel, because nobody knows me, and no one expect me to be something I'm not.

  Lara
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  New Discoveries

  by AvailableLight in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  was thinking about the ways being a jw can suppress major aspects of a person's sexuality.. after leaving, what things about yourself or your partner surprised you that would never have been revealed as jw(s)?.

  i'll list two for now, then possibly more later.. my girlfriend and i are more or less at the very beginnings of our exit phase - a phase that will likely extend for some time into the future.

  this is one secret we share.. we've always, even as strong jws, been very open and interested in sex.

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  butalbee

  I can't imagine for a man the intense pressure from all the built up tension of being a guilt-free JW without sexual relations outside of marriage. What a load to carry around with you!!!!!

  Gives dub wanker a whole new meaning!
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  So, what did you get for Valentines Day?

  by WildHorses in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  i got a box of candy, a single long stem rose, a bracelet, and a .

  lilacs.

  i don't want someone in my life i can live with.

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  butalbee

  It couldn't be from my ex JW boyfriend, right?? I just get this feeling it's from him, or maybe..........I'm hoping it's from him.
  
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  witchcraft and the movies

  by jiutman in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  just wondered if anyone can give me a suggestion.

  i have a very good friend who is a jw.

  we were having a discussion the other day and i told him i recently sa the movies harry potter and the lord of the ring.

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  butalbee

  <shaking my head at the stupid WT rules>

  I couldn't get my ex to watch the Exorcist.

  But he loved the X-Files, Stargate, Star Wars, etc...
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  So, what did you get for Valentines Day?

  by WildHorses in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  i got a box of candy, a single long stem rose, a bracelet, and a .

  lilacs.

  i don't want someone in my life i can live with.

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  butalbee

  Someone put a long stemmed red rose on my car, when I got out of work, there it was...Have no clue from who, though.
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  There is no escape, no way out...

  by butalbee in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i've been invited to go to a study group again, by a sister who i work with, she said she would like to explain some doctrines to me that i might had misunderstood, and would like to get together and talk.

  she also gave me 5 magazines--told me, of the great articles, that i should read.

  yep!!

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  butalbee

  I have been firm and polite, I have said, I am not interested, nor do I believe that this is the truth in any way, shape, or form. But they still come to my door, like 3 times a week[it's odd to me, because it's always on my days off, or if I'm working the night shift, they come early afternoon. As though they know my schedule[it changes every week]. They still urge me to go to a meeting, or bible study, they hand me Awake, or leave it on my work station.

  Just a couple weeks ago, I was being shunned by these people, and bitched at by elder wart nose, now out of the blue, they want to save me again.

  I think it has to do with my ex, somehow.
  Maybe, I'm just being paranoid again, I don't know....
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  What happened to the dude who thinks he's Jesus?

  by butalbee in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i forget what his name is.

  he's the gay guy, who likes to dress in drag and thinks he transmigated to become jesus himself.

  his posts are just entertaining, and i need a laugh right now........ his dementia was very amusing, but now i'm wondering if he's gonna transmigrate as a troll.. who is this dude?

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  butalbee

  Yeah, the Diana Ross impersonator, I laughed so hard when I saw the pic on his website, he's a nut, a f--ing lunatic. Is it Larsguy???
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  There is no escape, no way out...

  by butalbee in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i've been invited to go to a study group again, by a sister who i work with, she said she would like to explain some doctrines to me that i might had misunderstood, and would like to get together and talk.

  she also gave me 5 magazines--told me, of the great articles, that i should read.

  yep!!

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  butalbee

  There are plenty of posts and replies on here that are obviously rooted in the emotions of the person and how they perceived that they were wronged by the WT. We are all subjective by nature, it is just some are more inflicted by it than others. Complete objectivity is unattainable, but worth the effort nevertheless.

  Do I smell a TROLL??????????????????????????????

  amccullough--Why do I feel you are being so viscious to me? By chance, I'm wondering if you are related to my ex's sister in law??
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  What happened to the dude who thinks he's Jesus?

  by butalbee in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i forget what his name is.

  he's the gay guy, who likes to dress in drag and thinks he transmigated to become jesus himself.

  his posts are just entertaining, and i need a laugh right now........ his dementia was very amusing, but now i'm wondering if he's gonna transmigrate as a troll.. who is this dude?

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  butalbee

  I forget what his name is. He's the gay guy, who likes to dress in drag and thinks he transmigated to become Jesus himself. His posts are just entertaining, and I need a laugh right now.......

  His dementia was very amusing, but now I'm wondering if he's gonna transmigrate as a troll.

  Who is this dude??
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  Wanted: A few good men

  by butalbee in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  where do you go to meet a good man?

  don't want to go to a bar, where all the men are drunks.

  don't want to date anyone i work with anymore, it's too awkward.

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  butalbee

  SYN--I'll send you pictures as soon as I buy a new scanner.

  Would love to meet you too!