Posts by EvilForce

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Things you wouldn't hear or do at the Meeting for Field Service

by findingme in

remember getting out of bed saturday morning, silently cussing to yourself because you really had no desire to go out in service?

especially on a saturday, when you would prefer to sleep in or just bum around?

or even go to a yard sale?

EvilForce

Since it's a weekday morning don't you think we should do something more effective than beat on doors of empty houses?

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what song couldn't you listen to....

by loosie in

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what is the most ridiculous song that you couldn't listen too.. because of so called bad lyircs (maybe misheard lyrics), sexy beat or because fo the person who sang it didn't have the proper morals?.

mine.... couldn't listen to ac/dc because it meant they went both ways.

EvilForce

Huey Lewis and the News - I wanna a drug.

Hot Child in the City - disco sucked anyway no?

Afternoon Delight - I was in like 3rd grade

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Can you be "just friends" ?

by ScoobySnax in

ok this one is 2 fold..... tonight i was chatting to my ex on the internet and despite 5 years elapsing, he wants to go out for a beer.

he was a creep at the time we split, good looking and all the rest, but prone to violent outbursts and had this knack of making me think i didn't need any other friends (i gradually dropped them all) whilst all the time becoming more controlling........it messed up my head at the time.

(like a dumb twat i even gave him all my visa cards as he said he'd be better at managing "our" money) apparently he is now a changed person, and i am too, no longer as gullible as i once was.

EvilForce

I was in exactly the same position you were not that long ago. I always figured... why give up my family or make it an issue until I found the boy that was "the one". I wasn't going to give up my anchor unless I had something else to keep me centered.

So I started dating my best friend of 5 years.... and 2 1/2 years after we are going to get married. He is the only one I've shared all my secrets with. All my "issues" with. All my shortcomings with. And he is still here loving me all the more because of it. I am so lucky!!! He never judged me nor ever presumed to tell me how I should feel about something. He has always been there for me. Allowing me to explore my anger. Encouraging me to delve into my family issues, even when it meant he was excluded.

But anyway, enough about me...

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Can you be "just friends" ?

by ScoobySnax in

ok this one is 2 fold..... tonight i was chatting to my ex on the internet and despite 5 years elapsing, he wants to go out for a beer.

he was a creep at the time we split, good looking and all the rest, but prone to violent outbursts and had this knack of making me think i didn't need any other friends (i gradually dropped them all) whilst all the time becoming more controlling........it messed up my head at the time.

(like a dumb twat i even gave him all my visa cards as he said he'd be better at managing "our" money) apparently he is now a changed person, and i am too, no longer as gullible as i once was.

EvilForce

Thanks Cerise!!!

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Can you be "just friends" ?

by ScoobySnax in

ok this one is 2 fold..... tonight i was chatting to my ex on the internet and despite 5 years elapsing, he wants to go out for a beer.

he was a creep at the time we split, good looking and all the rest, but prone to violent outbursts and had this knack of making me think i didn't need any other friends (i gradually dropped them all) whilst all the time becoming more controlling........it messed up my head at the time.

(like a dumb twat i even gave him all my visa cards as he said he'd be better at managing "our" money) apparently he is now a changed person, and i am too, no longer as gullible as i once was.

EvilForce

Scooby,

In Canada you can marry same sex partner.... Viva le Canada!!! So my boyfriend will officially become my husband in 2 weeks :)

LittleRock,

You really do know what I went thru then. The mid eighties to go off to college was almost blasphemy. I got a 15 minute public reaming from the Sunday talk about "weak minded Christians going off to further their education". Keep in mind I was the only one in HIGH SCHOOL in the small Congo I was in..and then he proceeded to talk about that same "lacking Christian" as buying a 2 door red sportscar...not a service car. I had bought a red 2 door Mustang a month earlier. Of course I spent a whopping $ 5,000 on this car. But I guess I should have gone into debt to buy a service car for $10,000.

I remembered thinking to myself...Hmm that Brother T**** has a college education himself. His father was brought into the "troof" by my grandfather.

So LittleRock...have you come out to your parents??

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Evil Lives Monday, April 11, 2005

by apocalypse in

evil lives

monday, april 11, 2005

-if ever in your mind you wonder as to whether the leadership at watchtower has some level of sincerity, or perhaps as you move deeper into your pursuit of the real truth, you find yourself having doubts that you are doing the right thing in "doubting" the watchtower ?then read on.

EvilForce

AH!!! OK, OK, Now I understand your argument!!! I just got a little confused in your tirade... i couldn't follow your thought process :)

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Can you be "just friends" ?

by ScoobySnax in

ok this one is 2 fold..... tonight i was chatting to my ex on the internet and despite 5 years elapsing, he wants to go out for a beer.

he was a creep at the time we split, good looking and all the rest, but prone to violent outbursts and had this knack of making me think i didn't need any other friends (i gradually dropped them all) whilst all the time becoming more controlling........it messed up my head at the time.

(like a dumb twat i even gave him all my visa cards as he said he'd be better at managing "our" money) apparently he is now a changed person, and i am too, no longer as gullible as i once was.

EvilForce

I remember the first time I was finally "away from it all" and could walk down the street hand - in - hand with my boyfriend and not care one iota what other people thought. I grew up in Iowa, and in a town of 4,500 people so I can relate. As a teenager I knew who was doing what, when, at all times. So I could never be myself really, nor trust any JW's to not rat me out. There is no such thing as "private reproof" in small town JW USA.

You may find this funny...or sad... anyway I got a call last year from an elder from Hawaii wanting me to "turn myself" in for some wrongdoing I supposedly did 17 years previously. (A boy I slept with now lives there and turned himself in. Keep in mind he was an elder himself at this point and never had bothered to come clean before this!!! I was 19 YEARS OLD at the time). I'm 37 now, get a grip!

I only came out to my parents a couple of years ago. I had made my peace with everyone else, but was still holding on to the hope that somehow my parents would give me UNCONDITIONAL love. I've bought them a car, computer, helped with their house downpayment...everything materially I could. So here I am this super sucessful doctor w/ accolades coming out my ears, money up the wazoo, and a "picture perfect" life...yet I just want my folks to love me for who I am without all the JW dogma.

My husband, (soon to be official husband since we are getting married in 2 weeks in Toronto) doesn't always understand what I've gone thru and it makes him angry at my family. Of course this doesn't help much as you can imagine.

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Can you be "just friends" ?

by ScoobySnax in

ok this one is 2 fold..... tonight i was chatting to my ex on the internet and despite 5 years elapsing, he wants to go out for a beer.

he was a creep at the time we split, good looking and all the rest, but prone to violent outbursts and had this knack of making me think i didn't need any other friends (i gradually dropped them all) whilst all the time becoming more controlling........it messed up my head at the time.

(like a dumb twat i even gave him all my visa cards as he said he'd be better at managing "our" money) apparently he is now a changed person, and i am too, no longer as gullible as i once was.

EvilForce

Yes, I had to do the same thing! I moved 5 hours away (by car) to go to college to get away. Then my parents moved 5 months later to my city. UGH! So then I had to move 1400 miles away to make sure I could continue my internal journey.

Now I have a 2 Time Zone Buffer Rule. I love my family but I like having them at least 2 time zones away so they can't "pop in" for long weekends....LOL!

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Evil Lives Monday, April 11, 2005

by apocalypse in

evil lives

monday, april 11, 2005

-if ever in your mind you wonder as to whether the leadership at watchtower has some level of sincerity, or perhaps as you move deeper into your pursuit of the real truth, you find yourself having doubts that you are doing the right thing in "doubting" the watchtower ?then read on.

EvilForce

Um, not to sound stupid... but I don't understand what you are saying. Can you explain it to me in plain, simple English? I'm not following your train of thought.

I'm being sincere so please don't take this as a mockery or anything :)

Thanks for the help!

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Can you be "just friends" ?

by ScoobySnax in

ok this one is 2 fold..... tonight i was chatting to my ex on the internet and despite 5 years elapsing, he wants to go out for a beer.

he was a creep at the time we split, good looking and all the rest, but prone to violent outbursts and had this knack of making me think i didn't need any other friends (i gradually dropped them all) whilst all the time becoming more controlling........it messed up my head at the time.

(like a dumb twat i even gave him all my visa cards as he said he'd be better at managing "our" money) apparently he is now a changed person, and i am too, no longer as gullible as i once was.

EvilForce

Hello LittleRock!!!

You don't know how happy you made me with your post. I have tried to live my life as a Christian, Buhddist, Doctor, Gay man, and Ex JW as fully as I can. I am also looking for ways to pass on my experiences to others so maybe they don't have to go thru all the self hating, substance abusing, relationship landmines I dealt with. It's nice to feel like sharing my intimate life with all of you helps in some way :)

I know I find strength and encouragement from others on here, so really it's a 2 way street. I just hope I give as much as I get from this site and other "like minded" ones.