I confessed too. I thought it would make me feel closer to Jehovah, because they always tell you you have to tell the elders for spiritual healing to take place.
After the committee meeting, the only ones who felt better were the elders. I'm sure they enjoyed what they heard there. I remember the PO asked me if I felt better. I said "no". He said, "You will." I certainly do, after I've begun to live my own life outside the organization.
I felt a brief sense of relief at feeling like I could start clean, like I didn't have to live the lie anymore. It was the lying that hurt. But once you take away the burden of the organization, there's no more lying. True, I'm not disfellowshipped, so technically I still have my family. But my mother still speaks to me as little as possible. I still feel what I've gained is so much better than what I lost.