hi ellie! welcome! i know what u'r feeling. (((((ellie)))))
my entire time growing up i had a crippling fear of demons overtaking me everywhere i turned. i even had terrifying dreams of objects in my house being demonized. what finally brough all this to a head was when i was about 14 and going through a very hard time. my parents were in the middle of a rock'em sock'em divorce, and i was going through puberty. for comfort, i turned to the growing trend among young teenage girls, self mutilation. when my mom found out, she completely freaked and took me directly to the elders. so they began their bible thumping and what not, saying that i was clearly possesed by many demons and that i needed to be spiritually cleansed. so they put me on a spiritual detox system which of course did zilch to help my problem. nobody offered a listening ear or comforting support. it wasn't until my father finally decided that he was tired of the b.s. that he took my to a psychologist ((((shane ph.d)))) it was there that shane and i uncovered years of hurt and shame that was caused mainly by the jdubs and my erratic mother.
now i am living with my boyfriend who is a major fan of Slayer, Deicide, Korn, Manson and all those lovely so called demonized bands. he has a 15 inch Hellraiser figurine on the mantle along with many Hellboy action figures and a Slayer flag with an upside down pentagram on it. I have fairies lining the stereo in our room, a tshirt with 666 Beelzebub on it, and 2 fairy shirts.....needless to say my dear, nothing paranormal has ever happened, and i have never slept as soundly or been at as much peace as i am now.
don't let THEIR fears cripple YOU!
luv, kitty