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  tonight is the night

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i am being announced (the new way) as being df'd tonight.

  me and my ex--who wont show up so i will be there all alone.

  i am still unsure of how i feel about the whole thing.

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  ok well everyone i did go last night. it was so surreal! first of all the annoucements were longer then ever before. when they announced i swaer you could of heard a pen drop--at least 5 people started to cry-including me. it was embarassing but i am kind of glad i went to it. i feel like its finally over and i can start from here. i was df'd for the "severity" of my actions even though i was repentent--they told me even if some one is truly repentant it also depends on their sin and how long it was going on and who possibly knew about it.

  thank you everyone for your advice. i don't know if i was brave or giving in to them but i went :(
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  tonight is the night

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i am being announced (the new way) as being df'd tonight.

  me and my ex--who wont show up so i will be there all alone.

  i am still unsure of how i feel about the whole thing.

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  susu812

  its funny the way people treat you when this happens--they could of thought you were the nicest, sweetest person ever and then you make a "mistake" and you are shunned. so far my mom has been really cool about it-my dad too-but i know they would be pissed if i didn't go tonight.

  your right GBL this is a crossroad for me--now i just have to figure out my entire future--i feel like tonight has such a HUGE meaning for me.
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  tonight is the night

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i am being announced (the new way) as being df'd tonight.

  me and my ex--who wont show up so i will be there all alone.

  i am still unsure of how i feel about the whole thing.

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  susu812

  i don't knwo why i am going--i guess my conscience still bothers me about it-i mean i came forward with it. i am just confused as to wat i am doing now with my life. i am at the crossroads. i still am not entirely sure if i am going tonight--i still got a couple hours to figure it out who knows--i know everyone will be thinking about it and picturing it-nasty old people.
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  tonight is the night

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i am being announced (the new way) as being df'd tonight.

  me and my ex--who wont show up so i will be there all alone.

  i am still unsure of how i feel about the whole thing.

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  susu812

  well i live with my parents right now and my dad is an elder and they expect me to go. i still am unsure about how i feel about the whole thing so i am not exactly sure why i am going. i son't want to be a coward either. i am not going to hide from it, be too scared to face it. some people have already shunned me anyways--plus i feel like the reaction i get tonight and what i see maybe will help me with my decision ya kno?
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  tonight is the night

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i am being announced (the new way) as being df'd tonight.

  me and my ex--who wont show up so i will be there all alone.

  i am still unsure of how i feel about the whole thing.

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  susu812

  so i am being announced (the NEW way) as being df'd tonight. me and my ex--who wont show up so i will be there all alone. i am still unsure of how i feel about the whole thing. everyone that i have told so far have actually been supportive and what not but i am absolutely dreading tonight! all the stares--possible gasps from the congregation :( I was known for all my life as the good, sweet, innocent one and after me and my ex get announced TOGETHER i guess it really leaves nothing to the imagination right?! i think that is the most humilating thing to basically let everyone figure out that usually PRIVATE information! my life has seriously in ALL aspects never sucked more then right now.

  thanks for letting me vent
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  your first

  by susu812 in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  so i have a question out there for people--well men mostly....i know this is probably mostly for girls but is there any attachment at all for your first?

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  whats the difference?
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  your first

  by susu812 in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  so i have a question out there for people--well men mostly....i know this is probably mostly for girls but is there any attachment at all for your first?

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  susu812

  ha that you swiped from-nice. i just would think that someone you shared that with--especially the first time would mean something more to you--you know like some kind of emotional attachment--maybe that is just for girls idk.
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  your first

  by susu812 in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  so i have a question out there for people--well men mostly....i know this is probably mostly for girls but is there any attachment at all for your first?

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  susu812

  so i have a question out there for people--well men mostly....i know this is probably mostly for girls but is there any attachment at all for your first?
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  i was wonderin...

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  how many ppl here grew up entirely surrounded by jw's?

  all of my family and any friends i have had my entire life are jw's and now that i am df'd i have no association.

  for my ex who also got df'd he's ok because his group of friends (my old group as well) have pretty much faded out, but as for me i have no one.

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  how many ppl here grew up entirely surrounded by jw's? ALL of my family and any friends i have had my entire life are jw's and now that i am df'd i have NO association. for my ex who also got df'd he's ok because his group of friends (my old group as well) have pretty much faded out, but as for me i have no one. it seems like the road ahead is all uphill! how did some of you deal with it?
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  just got df'd

  by susu812 in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i am very nervous about being in here.

  i just got df'd last week and am unsure of how i feel about it.

  i feel guilty but at the same time not.

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  susu812

  thank you so much for all your thoughts and advice. it is so nice to talk to people who know exactly what i am going through. the jc meeting i had was very embarassing--i heard all the stories of what they would ask me--they did ask a few questions that were embarassing but they didn't go into all the detail i thought they would (as you can imagine i was elated!) i have a lot of questions and have started doing a lot of research because i believe this is a crucial time for me. thank you for all the posts :)