EF:
As a self-loathing teenager I begged him for answers. I wanted to know why he wasn't making my gayness go away. I was doing everything he asked me to do. I was in a suicidal downward spiral. I didn't get out of bed for days. I would cry myself to sleep. I wasn't masterbating. I was preaching full time. I baptised myself in Jesus name. I couldn't eat. What more did I need to do to show him I wanted to serve him? I prayed 3 or 4 times a day begging him to fix me. And you know what Hib? HE DIDN'T ANSWER MY F***ING PRAYERS !!!