Chevy I wish so much often that I felt the same way as you, but all I fremember truthfully from being here so long, is seeing nothing but problems in my life and oh so bad memories. I feel so sad at the moment but realise the futility of trying to open up to anyone here my true feelings, hence most of the time I lark around, living a life of make believe, doing my best to convince everyone I'm doing just fine when all I really want to do is to put an end to my own internal misery, thats the bottom line of it really.
I'm sorry that this is the real me, but I can't let any of you know that can I, cos that just wouldn't be right.
I want to end all this soon, thats the bottom line, an admission from me, you won't hear very often, but tis true, so true, I'm sick of living and have been for a long time, I'm tired of it all. The Jw's took my soul and trashed it a long time ago, anything else you see is a farce, [edit] knows why I'm telling you all this, I was always the one who was always supposed to be able to cope with everything but internally, my whole life is a mess.
Sorry.