Please accept my heartfelt sympathy for what you are going through.
But at least your mother talks to you. I haven't heard from mine in almost a year.
But I felt a need to reply to her comment about children delivering up their parents. It reminded me of, for one thing, Nazi Germany and the evil children who were recruited for the Nazi Youth and gave up their parents. Another thing it reminded me of is the movie, "Children of the Damned". These children also delivered their parents. Both of these instances show these kinds of children in a bad moral and ethical light. So why would anyone take these kinds of actions as a kind of bolstering attitude?
Also, I have always wondered how she could stand by her comment about anyone's son coming home in a body bag when so many JW children end up in body bags because of the refusal for necessary medical treatment. I am not trying to be calloused here. But I can tell you that it feels horrible to lose a child for any reason. I know because my 19 year old son committed suicide and I had to watch them bring him down my stairs on a gurny in a bag and it still fills me with terror to think of the sight. But if he had been in the armed forces and at least fighting for a cause that he believed in, at least his death would not have been in vain.
Please keep heart and know that others out here are feeling for you.
I survived 17 years of physical abuse from my father who is in good standing with the cong. They always blamed me for his actions. Now, with much needed insight into the matter, I realize it was not me who was the culprit but the victim here. You must also remember that you have been the victim of this organization and you do not owe them any explanations or apologies for your present course of actions.
Love and hugs to you.
Celticgoddess