Was it Dr. Dawkins or Bertrand Russell who said "Why did you make it so hard for me to believe in You!" I am a Theist working my way around this World and have the utmost respect for all the gut-wrenching evils you endured. I watched cancer eat four of my brothers and sisters and father (five people), my outlook is quite fearful on-top of my early JW Teachings "Your going to be fed to all the birds in the Heavens!" I wish I had a answer that provided some solace to each and everyone one of you but I don't, I can't lie to myself and disrespect you because life is pretty dam confusing my friends!
There is nothing like watching all the people who were close to you get eaten by cancer over a two year period, I prayed only to hear nothing back, same as other friends here who prayed when their loved ones died of some terrible death, lost a child or experienced the shameful evil that's totally preventable by mankind and the other evil God could stop (Great Earthquakes, Tsunamis, Katrina, ect..) I feel your pain because death hit my family when I was eight. I too watched while Cancer turned big strong people in to corpse of their former self, one family member was so happy I had figured out this was a Cult and all the pain he suffered from brain cancer backed off as I read him scriptures and prayed with him because my JW Family told him he was not going to receive a Resurrection. I wrote to one of the JW Apologist asking for help, he was too busy because his life was in total turmoil, everyone suffers dear friends! That's when I made it my goal to one day play Poker in Las Vegas by starting hitting little tournaments around my area. I will play in Vegas with the Pros, have my crazy brother from the after-life laughing at me trying to handle the pros!
The author has a right to be morally outraged, thank you for a nice perspective, I thought he was more respectful than many writers on this topic!