Welcome and nice to hear from you. There is no need to be nervous, no one knows who you are, so you can say whatever you feel.
I like having dfed here because you can not discuss a point without having both sides of the argument.
My concern with the WTS is that the emphasis on the organisation, a word you included in the post, takes away from the worship of God and Jesus, two words that you did not mention. I find that so much of the conversation I have with JWs is about the Organisation, the rules, the requirements, and so little about faith in God. So much about being glad to belong to the organisation, the worldwide brotherhood, and so little about belonging to the Christ.
However if you can find the spirituality you need as a Witness and are realistic about it all, then it may be a good place for you to be, only you can determine that. At least being here can give you some balance and other points of view, something that many JWs miss out on.