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got my stopwatch.............

by BlackSwan of Memphis in

let's say you have 20 seconds (give or take) to make an impression on a jw.

to say something that will stick in their head and make them really think.

because you know, that once they realize you are an apostate, they will shut down anything else that you have to say.. what do you say?.

In response to question "How have you been?"(usually asked with sickening amount of mock concern and high-and-mightiness)

Me: I've been doing great! I'm really hopeful and looking forward to the future for the first time in quite a while.

CD

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George Orwell's "1984" and the WTBTS

by NYCkid in

hey guys,.

i'm just finished reading george orwell's "1984.

" has anyone read it and did you also find eerie similarities to.

Cognitive_Dissident

NYC, you're absolutely right, 1984(and Animal Farm) is full of extremely disturbing similarities to the Witness world. I've read the book three times now. The first was when I was still a good little witness, and I thought it was an amazing book and had many modern day analogies, none of which focused on the Witnesses(I was a walking, talking poster-child of doublethink).

The second was during a time in my life when I wasn't going to meetings that regularly and a healthy dose of cognitive dissonance had started to set in, and I remember feeling kind of sick and edgy while reading it and after I finished it. After the second time I finished it I didn't really talk about it with anyone, even though I enjoyed it just as much and appreciated it more.

The third time was within the past year, right during the time I was going through a pretty complete mental breakdown, and I was completely, absolutely stunned that my mind had not made the conscious connection between what I had read twice before and what I had lived my entire life. A testament to the effectiveness of the mind-control tactics that the book describes and the Society employs, I suppose.

When I started coming to the sickening realization that there was no dignified way to leave, many times I thought of how Julia was able to maintain her good standing in the party - she excelled all others in screaming obscenities during the Two Minutes Hate. And although I stopped going to meetings and am now somewhat successfully fading, that principle was always fresh in my mind whenever I felt a pang of "conscience" at saying and acting like I believed when I knew in my heart that I didn't. Eventually I came to grips with the fact that I have absolutely no remorse or guilt about lying to elders or nosy gossipers in order to prevent my disfellowshipping.

"You could only rebel against it(the party) by secret disobedience" - chapter 5

Another quote that I like to that effect is from the book The Unbearable Lightness of Being
"In a society run by terror, no statements whatsoever can be taken seriously. They are all forced, and it is the duty of every honest man to ignore them."

CD

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JW video about Katrina relief

by zagor in

i've just discovered google's video engine so i've treid it by finding something about jws

Cognitive_Dissident

Wow, that video left me feeling all sorts of shit. I agree with many who have already posted, the kingdom melodies nearly provoked an anxiety attack. It is so frustrating to watch a video like this and know that the Society DOES have the ability to organize large numbers of people and get things done quickly, but also know that they 99.9% of the time only lend their helping hand to "fellow believers". The constant flashing of how many pallets and how many gallons and how many crates was just blatant self-ejaculation. "Ooh, we're SOOOO humanitarian!"

I do think that on the part of each individual that took the time to volunteer and help, they did a great thing. But it makes me sick that someone made a propaganda film about it. When I was still a dub I helped with a flood disaster cleanup effort, and it felt very good to get out and actually do something to help. I, and the few others that I went with did not count time for any of it. I did it because I genuinely wanted to help, and it was the only feasible means that I felt I had at the time to do so. I'm sure that most who volunteered their for this relief effort time did so out of genuine compassion, but it is just disgusting how the Witness Machine vomits out numbers in an attempt to shamelessly promote their own "good deeds".

Kudos to the volunteers, but shame on the Society and whoever made that video for piggy-backing on a disaster in order to serve the selfish Witness agenda.

CD

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HELP me if you can

by Pistoff in

i came upon this letter, and i think it could be posted in laundromats, doctors offices, etc if you feel it is worthy:.

who is knocking at your door?.

most people have either been visited by jehovahs witnesses at one time or another, or know of them.

Cognitive_Dissident

bttt

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Finally got scans of the new blood card

by PoppyR in

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ok folks, i have been nagged so have worked out how to scan and upload images and here they are for you, front and back of the card, and 3 pages of the instructions on how to fill them in.

bear in mind it's uk so possibly may be different where you are.. poppy xx

Cognitive_Dissident

Aargh! Sneaky f'ing bastards. I like how they present you with a false choice by giving you the apparent "option" of accepting certain types of blood transfusions or blood products. It's almost completely irrelevant since they provide absolutely no disseminated information about what's acceptable and what's not. You can bet that when they have the big blood card signing party at the kingdom hall or book study, 99% of Witnesses are going to initial the line that says they want none of any of them. They've created the belief for years that your level of faith is directly proportionate to how strongly you refuse certain things, blood being at the top of the list. I'm sure most will see the "options" on the card and think that by initialing that they will accept autologous blood transfusions or certain parts, especially with an elder looking on, that they're actually compromising some part of their faith. Sons of bitches. This way they can say "We gave our members the option, and they all chose to refuse blood completely, praise Jah!" Bastards.

At the very least many will think twice about it and wonder why all of the sudden they've got this option on the blood card and research the matter further.

CD

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Thursday night meeting woes(self sufficiency and blood)

by FaithfulDoubter in

as yours trully is still attending meeting, i thought i might vent a little on what going on.

i got there late, so i missed the first part.

last part: the blood issue.

Cognitive_Dissident

Anyway, I don't know if I can take another 6 months worth of meetings. I'm pulling my hair out as it is. And even after 6 months, if I want to keep family peace, I gotta figure out a way to gracefully fade.... Oh what a tangled web we weave.

Oh man can I relate to you there. My last six months of going to meetings I actually started sitting away from all windows because all I could think about was putting a fist through a plate glass window and watching the blood flow(during which time I did not have a blood card in my wallet). I went to the doctor and got a prescription for anti-anxiety medication that I would only take before meetings just so I could sit there without having full blown anxiety attacks.

If I were you I would torch your blood card as soon as you can. I didn't carry one in my wallet for the last four years I was in. Even though I hadn't admitted to myself that I didn't believe any of it any more, every year when it came time to renew my blood vow, some little voice in my head always prevented me from getting it done. I think I actually carried a blank one for a while now that I think about it, that way if I opened my wallet witnesses would see the nifty little logo, but little did they know it was blank.

CD

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Did God create good and evil?

by THE SHOOTIST in

isaiah 45:7 says he did.

gen. 3:16/17 says that he placed the tree of knowledge of good and bad in the middle of the garden.

didn't god say in gen 3:22 that after man ate of the fruit he has become like us (the gods)knowing good and evil.

Cognitive_Dissident

Deputy Dog
How do you deal with or "anaesthetize" evil, pain or "reality"?

I try not to anaesthetize reality at all. The whole concept of reality, what's actually real and what's not is a whole other discussion in and of itself. But for the most part I try to just feel the things that I experience without numbing myself to their intensity. Most of my memories and life experiences with the witnesses have a thick-skinned bubble around them. I felt very insulated from the effects of life, because I only let the parts which coincided with my very particular beliefs through the bubble.

Today if I feel pain, or joy, I try not to explain it away in terms of God's long-winded answer to Satan's challenge to his sovereignty. One of the effects of doing just that, for me, was not really being able to feel anything, and feeling like I either wasn't human, or that I was a dead human. Which is exactly where I was at when I left. So I try to experience the feelings that come along and just accept them for what they are, feelings. I was always so hellbent on only having the "right" feelings that I rejected any I didn't think were.

CD

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Did God create good and evil?

by THE SHOOTIST in

isaiah 45:7 says he did.

gen. 3:16/17 says that he placed the tree of knowledge of good and bad in the middle of the garden.

didn't god say in gen 3:22 that after man ate of the fruit he has become like us (the gods)knowing good and evil.

Cognitive_Dissident

D Dog

We judge God, so we can feel justified in our own minds in hating Him. We really have no way of knowing what it's like, ruling the universe or creation, so why should we try to judge God?

Deputy, I'm not judging God any more than I would judge a character in a movie for acts perpetrated by its writer. I'm not judging God at all. In my opinion, God is a construct which gets anthropomorphized by individuals to serve or salve emotion, and to anaesthetize reality.

But that obviously is my completely unprovable opinion. For all I know the bible actually is the inspired word of God, and I am one of history's current graduates from the School of Romans 3:10-19. Me and all my fellow alumni will surely catch an express lift south, right in to the middle of an Hieronymus Bosch painting, should God ever decide to show up and punish us for our agnostic and atheistic hubris.

I'm not really sweating it.

CD (of the "If Hell is God's Penalty Box Then That Post Will Surely Put Me There" class)

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Did God create good and evil?

by THE SHOOTIST in

isaiah 45:7 says he did.

gen. 3:16/17 says that he placed the tree of knowledge of good and bad in the middle of the garden.

didn't god say in gen 3:22 that after man ate of the fruit he has become like us (the gods)knowing good and evil.

Cognitive_Dissident

This calls to mind a line from a Chuck Palahniuk book,

"being born makes your parents God. You owe them your life, and they can control you. Then puberty makes you Satan, just because you want something better." - Invisible Monsters

I'm with you Shootist, if we were to take the bible as the supposed word of God, then we'd be putting our faith in a god who, if he were a parent, would be universally denounced as unfit.

CD edited: spelling

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Just finished my last final for my first semester of college!!!

by Cognitive_Dissident in

jw
friends

so i just took my last final for this semester, which was in fact my very first semester of college ever.

and it feels great!

dear watchtower bible and tract society, .

Cognitive_Dissident

Thanks all!

SNG and rmt1, yes, it's a great feeling. SNG, you're totally right, it's amazing what you can learn in a semester. It really is no wonder the Society doesn't want people going to college.

Peaches - awww you, talking about my brain. Although the jury's still out on whether or not I'm actually putting it to use. Like the new pic, by the way! I too look forward to chatting again, it's just those cursed time zones givin' us grief.

Muchas gracias Auld

Freedomlover - I think I did pretty well on my grades, which hopefully will have the nice byproduct of people wanting to give me money next year, hence cutting the loans by a bit. Here's hopin'.

and finally,

Pistoff - no no no, YOU my friend...YOU. Many, many thanks for all the support and encouragement! An exclamation point really doesn't do that sentence justice.

CD

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