Posts by Ghiagirl

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This years memorial defeated me and I didn't even go

by Ghiagirl in

i have not posted in a very long time here.

i would say about a year.

i was part of an ex jw chat that was very helpful, but a few months ago stopped being apart of it.

Ghiagirl

Thanks everyone for your responses it means so much! It's good to feel I'm not alone.

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This years memorial defeated me and I didn't even go

by Ghiagirl in

i have not posted in a very long time here.

i would say about a year.

i was part of an ex jw chat that was very helpful, but a few months ago stopped being apart of it.

I have not posted in a very long time here. I would say about a year. I was part of an ex jw chat that was very helpful, but a few months ago stopped being apart of it. I figured it was time to move on and stop focusing so much on the horrible cult. But after yesterday's memorial I feel so defeated and weak. I realized I will never move on from this, I can't! I will forever be an ex Jehovah's Witness. And this cult will never leave me or my family be. My husband will never just be able to be a human, who is an an amazing father and husband and friend and hard worker. Instead is a disfellowshiped apostate and will always be to them. Recently one of my cousins who is not a witness but raised around it, moved down the st from me. She started dating my husbands good friend who knows about how ugly the jw cult is. Well as the story goes we spend a lot of time with them as a couple, we don't have many friends, which I know a lot of ex jws deal with. Anyways, my family kept bugging my cousin to go to the memorial. I figured she would go, more for the social aspect. She doesn't give two shits about god or religion. But my husbands good friend always stuck up for us and has seen the horrible damage it has done to our family. Shockingly he decided to go with my cousin! Exactly what my family wanted, to try and bait my cousin and her bf....who she lives with! Who are fornicating on a daily basis. Yet they can't be around my husband and I. And my mother actually texted me about the memorial which she hasn't done in the last two years l, saying how it's her obligation to invite me cause she's going and knocking on strangers doors and should invite her own daughter. I told her I am happy in my life and I hope one day an organization won't get in the way of our family. This is really just a rant. It just pisses me off my family wants to try and convert some of the only people in my life that I have. They bribe them with their social circle/life. It's like my family wants their replacement daughter with my cousin to try and fill some void. I just want this cult to stop fucking with my life. I could die tomorrow, and all of this if for what????? I would never have my husband or beautiful son if things didn't happen the way they did and I am happy and thankful for that. But sometimes it's so hard to stay positive, when all I want to do is scream at any jw I can. But there is NO POINT. Sorry I just needed to vent. I felt so sick to my stomach last night and I hate how this cult still affects me so much.

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The Shunning truth is now out...

by babygirl30 in

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i have been df'd for 9yrs as of july 31 (yay me!).

so as i have written about previously in other posts, my whole family (parents + sister) made the choice to treat me as if i do not exist, and i have accepted it.

last summer they made a blatant show of it as our family reunion, in that they would walk right by me and not say one word...prompting our extended family to question their actions.

Ghiagirl

Can you put up a link! Would love to have that to show to family who denies they shun

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How do you deal with depression?

by BlackWolf in

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i'm currently going through a bout of depression and my eating disorder has gotten worse.

ever since my parents actually told me that they are going to kick me out when i turn 18 i've felt kind of hopeless about my life.

my parents won't take me to the doctor because the psychiatrists won't have my "best interests" aka jw crap in mind, because really that's the root of all my problems.. i'm wondering if any of you guys have any advice with dealing with depression?

Ghiagirl

Hi! I have gone through something similar to you. I am now 22, but I moved out at 18. My parents didn't technically kick me out, but I told them I didn't want to live the way they wanted to me to, so in result of that I had to move out. It is hard but doable. Luckily I have lots of relatives that are not jws I lived with a friend for a couple months then my uncle, once I had a stable job I rented a room. I did this making $8 an hour! Then $10. My whole life I was so depressed, as a child, when I had a pretty good life. My parents were never over the top witnesses. But I could never be who I wanted to be, or do what I wanted to do. Always an outsider, the loser, I just wanted to be normal. I got married and have a baby boy now, that is where I find my happiness. But I agree with others, friends will help, I know it's hard because your homeschooled, how trapped you must feel. Too funny though, 3 friends I have grown up with are all now fully out and awake! I would have never guessed. We understand eachother it's the best feeling. Soon enough you will see others leaving. Do whatever you can to make friends on the outside of the bubble your stuck it. Find a job you like, eventually you can be free, enjoy new things, It can be lonely, but not as lonely as being stuck in the hole your in now. Good luck! You ever need someone to talk to you can always DM me. I feel you!

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EdenOne, Mrs. Eden & Son: DISASSOCIATED!

by EdenOne in

great news!.

we are free!.

as of the 9th of june, me and my dear wife mrs. eden handed over our letters of disassociation at bethel in portugal, thus making official our departure from the jehovah's witnesses.

Ghiagirl

Congrats!! You have so much courage. So happy for you family, we are the few fortunate ones to be out with our mates and children. I have a 10 month old son who will never have to live the lies we have. Unfortunately he will have to live a life with limited association with any family that does want to see him, and almost every single family member on m husbands side who has nothing to do with him or my husband and I. A confusing situation. But better to be on our side where we are awake and living life to the fullest.

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Someone anonymously tipped the elders?

by raven in

so here an update on my current situation, in a nutshell i've been trying to quietly fade for the past 5 months.. well, my mom somehow found out that i am currently fading and that i live with my boyfriend (for more info on this check my previous posts) i told her yes i live with him and yes i no longer want to be a jw.

anyways, yesterday she met my boyfriend.. awkward.

and after lunch she pulled me aside to tell me that the po came up to her (he was part of my jc when i was reproved) he said to her "someone came to me and said - i cannot say who so they will remain anonymous- but that your daughter is living with someone" my mom confirmed and apparently he told her that i have one week to confess this, and if i don't my parents are obligated to tell them everything.. what kind of nonsense is that?

Ghiagirl

I was in a similar situation, sorry to say it is probably your mom that said something or will. My parents did! Nobody liked the fact my now husband and I were dating so they starting something they probably now regret. It ultimately led to my husband being disfellowshipped we had shortly before stopped attending meetings and they chased us down like they were goddamn police like you said. Constant calls, texts, emails, showing up at our house unannounced and ultimately sending a certified letter letting my husband know he got disfellowshipped. The difference is I was pregnant, so there is proof right there we were "sinning." But we walked away and didn't want to be jws before I even knew I was pregnant. But because my parents made an issue before, I feel the one over zealous elder felt he needed to finish us. Horrible experience. Hopefully ignoring them they will leave you alone, you live far away I doubt they care. But if your mom makes an issue it may change things. Good luck!

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Jehovahs witnesses investing in stocks involving pornography, alcohol distribution and military war weapons??

by Ghiagirl in

why is this the first time i have come across this?

my husband showed me a video about how the jws invest in stock like cinemax, disney, companies producing war weapons, alcohol and much much more.

if this is true, there are tax records to show for it right?

Ghiagirl

Thanks guys! we just came across this and wanted to see if it was true or not. I'm not nitpicking trying to go against the wts for everything little thing, but to be apart of something my whole entire life and to find out it's all a lie makes me curious as to what is really going on behind closed doors. And I still have many family members apart of the wts and I hate seeing them be lied to too and fooled.

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2016 Regional Convention - Sunday Morning synopsis

by Jehalapeno in

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via reddit.

here are the morning program highlights.

will update for the afternoon once it's all over.

Ghiagirl

It is truly scary to see how these people become brainwashed! And I was once brainwashed. I have been out 2 years now, so about 3 years ago I remember sitting at the last convention I attended, teary eyed at some video they showed. How sick, how heart breaking. The only reason I have room in my heart to be ok with those who choose Jehovah's Witnesses is because I was once blind. As much as I hope to see anyone and everyone open there eyes I can't judge, and I can't expect them

to see just because I did. Who knows, if my situation hadn't been so effed up, I may have never woken up. What a bittersweet situation I had. So thankful.

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Jehovahs witnesses investing in stocks involving pornography, alcohol distribution and military war weapons??

by Ghiagirl in

why is this the first time i have come across this?

my husband showed me a video about how the jws invest in stock like cinemax, disney, companies producing war weapons, alcohol and much much more.

if this is true, there are tax records to show for it right?

Ghiagirl

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i0lrdx3vPug&feature=share

Why is this the first time I have come across this? My husband showed me a video about how the jws invest in stock like Cinemax, Disney, companies producing war weapons, alcohol and much much more. What?! If this is true, there are tax records to show for it right? If that's the case it is so black and white. Why can't people see the organization for what it is? Yes I was once brainwashed as well but this would be pretty solid proof. To see the insane amount of money the organization is investing in stocks, yet the end is near and they have no money. I am so sick to my gut right now. Can someone help clear this up. My husband and I are lost.

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New Member

by DangerMcDanger in

my name is jimbo, i'm almost 20 years old, and i live in southern california.

here we go, here's my story (i feel like i'm in an aa meeting haha):.

i was invited by a friend who, looking back, i could tell was buttering me up for months so she can lunge on the perfect opportunity to invite me to a meeting.

Ghiagirl

Hello welcome! I am in Southern California as well! Been out almost 2 years I was born in. I have to say off the top of my head what really pisses me off is "the truth!" Look at my first post and I refer to the jws as the truth. Shows how brainwashed I was, I was born in though so that's all I knew. But we still spend time with some family that are witnesses and they say the truth as if it is the actual truth, it literally makes me squirm in my seat. And it's actually funny because today I was watching a movie and it was a couple that was getting married but already lived together....which is every freaking movie. Which shows how normal it is to live with someone your not married too! But being raised a jw all you know is chaperones and sex after marriage. Not saying it's wrong to choose that, but if you choose otherwise that's ok too! It's just sick. Just shows how close minded you become. With something so normal