lol i'm just having fun I had nothing else to do.
So what did I do? I actually repressed it when I started bible study, but you know how hard that is. I did the so called evil "double life" to prevent any drama. First I stupidly told my "worldy" friends I was a JW, which I learned later that I had to be baptized to really be considered one. So that meant, I had to lie to 3 groups of people, family, friends, and "spiritual friends" . Then I'd figure, well if I become baptized and just preach then I wouldn't have to worry about anything and just let Jehovah change me to straight after armegeddon. I kept going back and forth deciding if I should really become a JW. So I often ended up with since Jah hates gays why doesn't he just kill me on the spot now, since there's now way I'm "inheriting" the Kingdom. So I became pretty depressed with the thought of God killing me looming over my head. On top of that, my str8 friends suspected I was gay so they'd flirt with me. Which was really cool at first but then I'd fall in love and get heartbroken when I realized that they were just joking. Also i had to deal with my family, whom are Caribbean, which means I sometimes sit through music that basically bashes and blames gay guys for somehow spreading chlamydia to women. Yes there's a song with lyrics like that. The only way I coped with all of this was to be really shy, too shy to date girls, too shy to make new friends, and too shy to go door to door. So far it has worked out nicely in the KH, and to my friends because I kinda make the religion way more stricter than it appears.
As for Kingdom Ministries, and Watchtowers, I have no idea how they can find this information so interesting. After the first month, its all wonderfull, and then afterwards its like REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT REPEAT. I have some favorite buzz words though I saw on this board, "Religion is a snare and a racket" lol what the heck?? and "Do you listen to music that debases?" that always cracks me up. I mean if someone just had a random conversation using all their vocabulary, i'd probably laugh to death.
