Great.....another awkward conversation to look forward to with my Dad.....
WasOnceBlind
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Accidental Posting of 2015 Release on JW.ORG
by rosesinbloom ina couple of weeks ago someone posted that jw.org accidentally posted the 2015 regional convention release.
i can not fine the thread now.. i saw a picture of it yesterday.
a sister had downloaded the pdf and read it that night.. it is a 16-page brochure entitled "return to jehovah", with a purple background.. it has been designed specifically for inactive ones are those who have been raised around the truth but never baptized.
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Got invited to Sundays pep rally
by WasOnceBlind inso my mom who sadly is still in the "truth" asked me if i was going to the circuit assembly this sunday.
she knows i don't go to meetings anymore but usually when she would mention the assemblies i would say yes and go pretty much just for her sake.
however, this time i couldn't bring my self to saying yes, i've been reading "crisis of conscience" and i just can't bring my self to go anymore, even if it's for my mother.
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Ended up not going. My mom asked me Saturday night if I was going, I told her I didn't know. I ended up not going and taking the family to a baseball game instead. Unfortunately my mom watches my son for me (picks him up from school) so I will go and have to pick him up and be interrogated by my dad as to why I didn't go. -
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Questions that were never answered for me
by WasOnceBlind ini have always been a very rational and thoughtful person.
there where always questions i had growing up regarding things i was taught.
of course asking questions while being a jw is a big no no!
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Oubliette20 minutes agoWOB: Why are we not allowed to have beards?
Here's a thread on that you might like from one of my favorite posters:
BEARDS: Why JW men don't have themOh, yeah I now know why. These are just examples of questions that weren't answered for me when I was in the "truth." All those questions and more I have found answers for.
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Questions that were never answered for me
by WasOnceBlind ini have always been a very rational and thoughtful person.
there where always questions i had growing up regarding things i was taught.
of course asking questions while being a jw is a big no no!
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WasOnceBlind
I have always been a very rational and thoughtful person. There where always questions I had growing up regarding things I was taught. Of course asking questions while being a JW is a big NO NO! I thought I would post some up:
Why are we not allowed to have beards?
Why no tattoos is mosaic law is over?
If god is love, why does he allow so much suffering? From what I remember their main answer was that it started in Eden when Satan challenged Gods right to rule. However, I refuse to believe that a God of Love would let billions thru history suffer and die just to prove a point!
Why no birthdays? (their explanations are super shaky)
Is earth is 6k years old, whats up with Dinosaurs? Cavemen?
I had many more, these are just some that come to mind.
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Got invited to Sundays pep rally
by WasOnceBlind inso my mom who sadly is still in the "truth" asked me if i was going to the circuit assembly this sunday.
she knows i don't go to meetings anymore but usually when she would mention the assemblies i would say yes and go pretty much just for her sake.
however, this time i couldn't bring my self to saying yes, i've been reading "crisis of conscience" and i just can't bring my self to go anymore, even if it's for my mother.
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WasOnceBlind
Wait! What???!! They charge now??? I remember for the District Assembly they use to charge for parking if you weren't wearing your ID card, they stopped that after a while thought. -
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Got invited to Sundays pep rally
by WasOnceBlind inso my mom who sadly is still in the "truth" asked me if i was going to the circuit assembly this sunday.
she knows i don't go to meetings anymore but usually when she would mention the assemblies i would say yes and go pretty much just for her sake.
however, this time i couldn't bring my self to saying yes, i've been reading "crisis of conscience" and i just can't bring my self to go anymore, even if it's for my mother.
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WasOnceBlind
So my mom who sadly is still in the "truth" asked me if I was going to the circuit assembly this Sunday. She knows I don't go to meetings anymore but usually when she would mention the assemblies I would say yes and go pretty much just for her sake. However, this time I couldn't bring my self to saying yes, I've been reading "Crisis of Conscience" and I just can't bring my self to go anymore, even if it's for my mother. I wish my parents would learn TTATT so we could be a happy family. It breaks my heart everytime my kid asks why grandma/grandpa don't come to his birthdays or any other holiday for that matter. -
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Introducing my self
by WasOnceBlind ini stumbled upon this site about a week ago while googling a question.
the question was "why can't jw's have beards?
" i read the responses and realized the truth in them.
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bradforda day ago
Welcome. I have had many friends who were illegal in the US. Weirdly they could give no. 3 or no.4 talks depending on what year you are referencing the ministry school and they could handle mics. But they could never become servants or pioneers until they were legal.
That is another thing that always bugged me, a lot of these rules seemed so arbitrary! I would often visit other congregations (I admit mainly to check out and meet new girls) and would see that a lot of the stuff that wasn't allowed in one would be in another. Example, I had a friend with a receding hairline at a young age (around 21) he wanted to shave his head because honestly the hairline made him look about 15 years older. He was told if he did he would loose all "privileges", at the same time I would visit other congregations and see that brothers with shaved heads not only were allowed they were giving talks on Sundays!
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Crisis of Conscience
by WasOnceBlind inwow, what a great book.
i started reading it today and have not been able stop.
im already 80 pages in!
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Wow, what a great book. I started reading it today and have not been able stop. Im already 80 pages in! To read all these experiences from someone who was actually there is mind blowing. To anyone who hasn't read the book I encourage you to do so. -
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Introducing my self
by WasOnceBlind ini stumbled upon this site about a week ago while googling a question.
the question was "why can't jw's have beards?
" i read the responses and realized the truth in them.
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Yeah it was the Live Forever book, I remember studying that book and the Apocalypse booked made me ask more questions then get answers....but of course asking questions is a big no no. -
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Introducing my self
by WasOnceBlind ini stumbled upon this site about a week ago while googling a question.
the question was "why can't jw's have beards?
" i read the responses and realized the truth in them.
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WasOnceBlind
I stumbled upon this site about a week ago while googling a question. The question was "why can't JW's have beards?" I read the responses and realized the truth in them.
A little bit about my self: I was not born in, my dad first converted when I was about 6 yrs old. Before that we were "catholic" althought I dont remember ever setting foot in a church. At the time my parents were seperated because my dad had moved for work reasons. After about 2 years we moved back with my Dad and he arranged for my mom to get a study and for me and my sibling to as well. I didn't think anything of it, the story book (the yellow one) was not bad for a kid. It wasn't until I started studying the other book, the red one (I forget the name) that I started thinking -WTF, some of this doesn't make sense or it's so confusing to where you just want to get thru that chapter and be done with it. My dad became super dedicated to "the truth" and super strict. We wouldn't miss a meeting, corners at 6 sat/sunday and family study 2 hrs long and personal study 2 hrs long every week. It got old fast! I was not allowed to play sports in school because it took away time from meetings and preparing for meetings and personal study and family study and preaching. This really pissed me off because there were kids of elders that were in sports, I would tell my dad and he wouldn't give a reason other then it's was discouraged by the organization. That's about the time I started noticing the hypocrisy within the organization. Another issue was the microphone issue, in the congregation Mic duties were usually given to male teenagers, as long as you were a publisher in ok standing you got to pass around the mic. Well I wasn't allowed to pass mic's, at the time I was in the country illegally and so I was told I could not hold any privileges, I failed to see what one had to do with the other, but the main problem was how others started seeing me. Since I was a teenage male publisher and I wasn't passing out mic's or having other privileges or even allowed to give the number 3 part then I was obviously a BAD witness in the eyes of others, why else would I not be allowed. I remember one day asking an elder, why am I not allowed to give a part number 3, he straight out told me, that part is reserved for witnesses with a future within the organization. Jesus talked about love and even loving your enemies but all I saw and herd was hypocrisy and hate. Hate the world and anyone not in the organization! I remember one time my dads brother, my uncle who he hadn't seen in maybe 15 years came to visit with my grandma (also a JW). My uncle use to be a JW and had DA'd himself, well when he showed up my dad wouldn't even shake his hand. I was like, wtf, Jesus said love your enemy and you can't even show love to your own brother just because he use to be a JW and didn't want to be one anymore? My dad would always be talking about how Jehovah didn't want anyone serving him just because they felt like the were being forced to. So I asked my dad why he wouldn't even talk to my uncle, he said that because my uncle turned his back on Jehovah, so I asked my dad if he would rather have my uncle be fake and stay in the organization even thought he didnt believe in it. All he could answer is that since he was DA it was like if he was DF and he should be shunned out of love to make him see the error of his ways. After a while every time I would go to meetings I would spend more time reading and doing research on my own and realizing a lot of the stuff was BS. The bible was only quoted when it was convenient and context was almost never taken into account. Thru growing up the doctrine taught was the "this generation shall not pass" doctrine. What BS that turned out to be! Anyway's it wasn't until after HS that I really started to fade and lead a double life, I would still go to meetings and assemblies but mostly just to be able to talk to friends and check out girls. Eventually I started dating a non JW secretly, we got engaged in secret, I did not tell my parents until a month before my wedding. "Hey btw Im engaged, this is my fiance and we are getting married in a month", it was so awkward. Of course my dad called the elders, a JC was created, I wasn't DF'ed because I hadn't actually done anything but was told either dump my fiance or be publicly censored. I told them I wasn't going to dump her so I got censored. Even after marriage I would still occasionally go to meetings mostly with the purpose of keeping up with friends, after a while thought I stopped going altogether except for maybe a day for District assembly and Jesus death commemoration. My parents are always asking when Im going to start going to meetings again and how I should take my wife and kids, I dont have the heart to tell them that I don't believe in what the organization says anymore and sometime just want to ask them how they do. All these failed prophecies, all the hypocrisy, how anyone can still believe is beyond me. It's been 8 years since I faded away and Im happy to say that I am happy.