This is my problem: I can't stand watching any of this crap anymore or even preparing for the meetings, but I really need to so I can help my wife see the flaws in the logic. UUUGGGHHHHH!
Every time I think, "Ok, now I'll get my wife to sit down and watch this or study this", I end up throwing up a little in my mouth and my brain nopes out of there. Since she won't look at anything apostate, I have to find things in JW land, but I'm so repulsed by it that I can only stand a few minutes at most and usually not even that.