I think you believe in him but just like other atheists, you don't want to respect him or obey him so you say he doesn't exists because of lack of evidence which isn't true.
Yeah I know. Depressing isn't it?
It's like when people laugh at me when I talk about Petel - the Pink Pixie that lives at the end of my garden. Petel created the earth, moon and stars. And the Sun. And do they believe me? No.
But Petel's day of vengeance on lazy mankind is coming. She will save me and my family and any who believe in her.
Then we'll see who has the last laugh.