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  Why do the majority of "newbies" disappear ???

  by kid-A in

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  i have noticed that, in general, there is a "core" of regular posters on jwd that have been members for several years.. however, it seems the vast majority of "newbies" disappear after a couple posts, days or perhaps a week.

  how many "welcome" or "introduction" .

  threads have we had here where the new member disappears within a day or so, never to post again?

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  mariposa

  I don't think they disappear...they are probably still around. I read stuff on here just about everyday but post rarely. The info on jwd has been invaluable to me as I'm sure it is to others but I'm not one to tell my story too quickly. I will eventually and from the tales, I'd love to make it to an apostafest!! It just takes time to feel comfortable and I'm sure I'm not the only one
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  Grrrrrrrrrrr...

  by mariposa in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so here i am sunday walking through the mall with my hubby, niece and little girl.

  he's from guatemala and i'm about as white as you can get..red hair to boot.

  we're talking in spanish about whatever and a little voice comes up from behind me in spanish, "you speak sapnish?

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  mariposa

  So here I am Sunday walking through the mall with my hubby, niece and little girl. He's from Guatemala and I'm about as white as you can get..red hair to boot. We're talking in Spanish about whatever and a little voice comes up from behind me in Spanish, "You speak Sapnish?" DUH!! So I said yeah and smiled. Well then the "truth" came out....I guess the Sapnish cong. in the area have special stuff to hand out right now and she just launched right into to it. I was like No thanks and kept walking...she had to follow " blah blah blah blah blah". I said you guys are witnesses right? She said yes. I said "Look I was involved with them for over 10 years and don't want to have any part of it"

  Boy was I stupid enough to think that would shut her up! She keeps following me..Why? What happened? with a look of utter shock on her face that anyone would leave Jehovah. I finally turned around and told her to leave me alone, I'm finished with this conversation. She stopped thank god!

  I've been messed up about it since...should I have tried to explain what happened to me? Why I'm no part of it anymore? Then I get pissed off and think I should have gone to mall mgmt. and told them what was going on in their mall. We saw the lady and her husband for the next hour approaching anyone who looked like they might speak spanish. And why did she talk to me...not my husband who is obviouly latino?

  My thoughts and emotions have been on a roller coaster ride ever since. I had thought I was doing so much better not thinking about the witnesses all the time and all a sudden BAM it all comes back at once!!!! I get really mad that I reacted so strongly, I didn't think it would affect me this much. Geesh....will it ever totally go away???
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  Serious Conditioning/Brainwashing

  by KW13 in

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  2. friends

  the witnesses we know are obviously brainwashed, but do you think we ever recover from what it did completely?

  does every part of jw'ness leave us?.

  i have a feeling that even if its not obvious, things from our personal insecurities to how we act and who we are is a result of the org, yes even if your the rebellious type cos then your just running away .

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  mariposa

  Kw...I just saw what you posted to Luna -

  man...I was in the same boat. I hadn't been to a meeting in almost 2 years but the guilt of NOT going was killing me and I was seriously thinking about going back. I was looking for a way to get at least the mags in the mail online when I found this place. Who knows where I'd be of I hadn't !

  I don't know if the things they taught will ever get out of my head. I was in about 10 years. I don't know what I exactly believe now..every once in a while I still think maybe it would be better if I was still in. At least there would be an excuse for the problems in the world, eh? Then I slap myself upside the head and say - I gotta get a grip -. It's tough.

  I'd like to know what people say who've been out for a long time.
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  One of those scary moments!!

  by Sad emo in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  we're having summer in the uk this week so earlier this afternoon i put my two guinea pigs out in their run to 'mow the lawn' while i went indoors and had something to eat.. i went back out later to check that they still had some shade from the sun, stepped out of the door just in time to hear a loud splash.

  i dashed to the pond to see if it was one of my cats who had fallen in.

  but it was one of the guinea pigs who'd managed to escape!!!.

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  mariposa

  Oh No!!!

  I'm sooooo sorry the little munchkin didn't make it! And now her little friend is so sad too.

  My thoughts are with you
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  Panic attacks and Jehovahs Witness!

  by Gill in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  how many of you had panic attacks when you were a jw and when leaving?

  i know of many jw women and a few men who suffered badly with panic attacks.

  since recently having another spate of panic attacks i suddenly realised that i had been having them all my life.

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  mariposa

  Interesting reading everyone's comments...

  I never had a problem untill I started attending meetings. I'd be sitting at a meeting in the hall and all of a sudden this wacked out anxiety would come over me. I felt like I couldn't breathe and my vision would get all fuzzy. I had no idae what the hell was going on! My study conductor was like " oh it's just a panic attack, nothing to worry about" then she kept trying to get me to go to this doc who saw lots of Witnesses and prescribed lots of antidepressants to them. After a few years, I went and got some. I couldn't stand to be medicated and stopped taking them after a few months. Funny thing is, that's when things started to get bad with me and witnesses and I started to fade...
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  OFFICIAL WORLD CUP THREAD! "here we go, here we go, here we go"!

  by nicolaou in

  1. social
  2. entertainment

  less than 2 hours before it all starts and a quarter of the earth's population will be watching!

  - c'mon you americans, get on board.

  germany kick-off against costa rica at 5pm to be followed by poland v ecuador at 8pm (bst)

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  mariposa

  I've got it on...been flipping between the english and spanish stations. My husband loves soccer but poor Guatemala didn't make it...this was the closest they ever got to go this year. We even went to the qualifying match between them and the USA. It was really really cool! Never been to a soccer game before...the fans are fanatics...I loved it. It was like 90% Guatemala and 10% Americans there, sad considering we're here in the US.

  So we're basically just rooting to make sure Mexico LOSES! hahahaha

  Nah, it's cool cause I auctually know the rules now. I'm going to watch all the games I can and see some awesome looking goal shots. oooh - looks loke ecuador got a goal...didn't see that one. Gotta call the hubs, been calling him after every goal to let him know what's up.
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  Scientology Sponsors NASCAR

  by sixsixsixtynine in

  1. social
  2. current

  pure genius!

  where else could you find so many morons, ready to be brainwashed?

  check out the witness reference at the end.

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  mariposa

  I can see it now....no reference to Jehovah, Jesus, just a big WATCHTOWER across the hood. I can't think of what would a good racing witness graphic....maybe Jehovah's chariot racing to throw fireballs down at a track?

  (Ya know...at all those drunken sinners leading that debaunched lifestyle)
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  Marines

  by mariposa in

  1. social
  2. humour

  i thought this was too funny.... marines are taught:.

  1) keep your priorities in order, and.

  2) know when to act without hesitation.. a marine was attending a college course between missions in iraq and afganistan.

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  mariposa

  I thought this was too funny...

  Marines are taught:

  1) Keep your priorities in order, and

  2) Know when to act without hesitation.

  A Marine was attending a college course between missions in Iraq and Afganistan. The professor, an avowed atheist, shocked the class one day when he walked in, looked towards the ceiling. and said loudly,"God, if you are real, then I want you to knock me off this platform, I'll give you exactly 15 minutes."

  The lecture room fell silent and the professor began his lecture. Ten minutes went by and the professor proclaimed, "Here I am God - still waiting."

  It got down to the last minute when the Marine stood up, walked towrds the professor and threw his best punch, knocking him off the platform and out cold. The Marine went back to his seat and sat down. The other students were shocked and stunned and sat there looking on in silence.

  The professor came to, noticeably shaken, looked at the Marine and asked, "What is the matter with you? Why did you do that?" The Marine calmly replied, "God is busy today protecting America's soldiers who are busy protecting your right to behave like an idiot. So he sent me."
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  The ridiculers were "right ".............all along

  by vitty in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  how do you feel, now, knowing that the ridiculers, objectionist or non-jw family and workmates were right.. i feel a tad embarrist, i spent a long time, 20 years, trying convince, or prove ppl that i had the "truth" .

  my only consolation was that i would be proved right and that they would end up looking foolish.

  pride is a terrible thing.

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  mariposa

  I never said anything to my friends or family. I just started calling them more, going to holiday celebrations and buying gifts again for everybody. Last Xmas, I was broke! I felt like I had to buy extra stuff for my close family to make up for the years I didn't even call. But everyone's great. They don't mention it, I think they're just happy to have me back in their lives
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  WHEN YOUR CHILD JOINS A CULT (Mk. 10:29)

  by DannyHaszard in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  when your child joins a cult

  the tide - port harcourt,niger delta,nigeria

  ... what happens is that cults divide a family that was once.

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  mariposa

  Thanks for the article Danny...so true. makes me sad to think what I put my parents through.

  I wish my mom had this when I joined the dubs. Maybe it would of helped, but truthfully I'll never really know. One thing's for sure, she was always there for me esp. when my newfound F-A-M-I-L-Y turned their backs on me!