James Woods, this is going on for me for about one year now. Going out on the field service is right now a bit strange. I do wish to share with others, I love to teach the Bible, but I hesitate in making a disciple out of someone to become a member of the WTS. In that regards I'm a bit divided inside. In any case, I take on the notion that preaching not only saves others, also saves myself, so I take more on that aspect.
You are still going out in field service for the JWs, but you have also created a website which differs from their doctrine? For example:
cofty, out of curiosity, did you read the article section that I mentioned ? Because if you did, I find it hard to believe that you think I'm "very much influenced by the Watchtower" in this particular (but crucial) thing of understanding what is the Kingdom. Because the Kingdom being a heavenly government is only one out of the seven things that the Kingdom is.
I think you are in a very strange place religiously speaking. It is my opinion that you should figure out what you really believe before you continue to contact people in JW field service - or try to teach people things on the internet.
Realistically speaking - it is really in YOUR hands. Not God's hands - not any more than any other human's choice of religion. God does not pick peoples religion for them. We all have an individual choice. I find it hypocritical to stay in a religion with which I disagree for social, family, or other reasons.