Pistoff, I'm not sure what happened in my previous post, but most of my comments didn't show up. My comments about you articulating exactly what I felt, are in reference to this:
It is hard to articulate this, but I used to have an unconscious fear of learning something that would invalidate my belief system.
This was my response to the words I quoted from your in my previous post: You articulated so well one of the main things that bothers me about the JW's! My sister and I have often wondered when it becomes unacceptable to ask certain questions of one's book study conductor. When the JW's first came to my door, I had lots of questions and had no hesitance asking them. However, now that I'm learning more, I've gotten a distinct impression that if I shouldn't really ask certain types of questions; if I do, I feel that my book study conductor will group me into that category of people she feels just doesn't want to accept "the truth." The problem is that when they first came to my door, I didn't know the questions to ask because I didn't know their major doctrines; they don't reveal those until much later in the study.