first of all La Capra, I don't really give a crap whether or not you think I'm living a double life or the WT for that matter. I am allowed to question to see why other people have a problem with the WTS. You presume to think that I don't know that what I'm doing would be in direct violation of the WT's stance on apostacy, but I do and frankly don't care. It is my double life to lead. I don't need anyone on this board to tell me what I'm doing or what I will do in connection with my religion. If I wanted anyone's opinion as to what I am doing I would ask for it. Just stick to the topic that was posted. I wanted to know about other people's disfellowshipping experiences, not why you feel I should not join the witnesses. After I have searched and collected all the information that I want and need, then I will make an informed decision on what I will do and with what organization (if any) I will do it with. Until then thanks but no thanks for you humble opinion