Well, AuntConnie, I am glad you found a place to vent. Sounds like it's a long time coming.
I would like to suggest that in addition to writing more to get out your frustrations, disappointments and anger, take some time to just be quiet and think on some of the comments that people have shared here on your thread.
We are all types of people here and our collective experience is enormous.
On page one of the thread someone suggested you say 'Thank you' for having this free site available to you. Someone developed it and continues to pay every month out of his pocket and he spends his time to maintain it. There are 1000's of people who contribute their thoughts and support.
Instead of hearing any shred of appreciation for anything in your past and present life, you just seem so hateful and angry. Too hateful to even say 'thank you' to the dozens of people who took time out of their evening to respond to your rant.
And this comment in your last post is probably the most un-Christ-like thing I have ever heard: "we both decided they are weak and don't deserve to associate with us."
I hope you stick around a bit. And, as has already been suggested, you may want to consider visiting a psychologist in your area. Your emptiness and disatisfaction and anger come across loud and clear. It's not normal and it's not healthy. It's definitely not reflective of christianity in any form.
-Aude Sapere (meaning: Dare to Know; Dare to Have Wisdom/Understanding)
Edit to Add: I see that AuntConnie edited her last post to include a thank you. That was nice. Thank you - and you are welcome.