Posts by jambon1

i was brought up in an atheist household but through circumstances found myself studying at age 17. the common sense of it all (it looks that way at 17) appealed to me and before long i wholeheartedy embraced the faith.

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I had lots of questions at 17 yrs old. I had a lot of respect for the bible having been told it was sacred and holy. I was brought up in an atheist household but through circumstances found myself studying at age 17. The common sense of it all (it looks that way at 17) appealed to me and before long I wholeheartedy embraced the faith. I married at 20 and pioneered a couple of years later. At this time I watched the film `Schindlers List` and I feel this was a turning point.

God`s permission of wickedness had troubled me for a long time (even as a pioneer) but the real life images in that film tortured me. My main obstacle was the question; why does he let it happen? I found no satisfying answers in the org but nonetheless went wholesale into the JW/Pioneer lifestyle. Keep worldly relatives at a distance/do little amount of work/never consider a `good` job/just seek 1st the kingdom/blah/blah/blah.

During this time (the love bombing had truely ended) I saw a very hypocritical lot of people. Elders and pioneers disapointed me in their conduct. I could give you examples but they are too numerous. Lets just say that there are a lot of elders/svnts/pioneers, the `lights` of the world who are leading double lives. And if they are`nt they are treating people harshly. They are a bunch of self-righteous judgers.

On a positive note, I have a few good friends who are just misled individuals. Shame for them. Good people who struggle like I did but have, as yet, decided to stay.

I now regret 5 years of tormented conscience as I lived by what I knew was wrong. - Shunning/blood/all worldly people will die/2 witness policy, child abuse/hypocrtical elders/etc/etc.

My main turning point came when I had my wee girl. I knew that I would do ANYTHING to save her beutiful life. Including blood. Persecution terrorised me, I had read so much in the publications and became tormented by the prospect of ever loosing my wee girl. - That religion kills your mind. Why should I have had to worry about all this stuff, I was bloody miserable.

The main thing that hit my mind; no-one comes before my family. JW life demands exclusive devotion to God. I now never even believed in him.

As I got the internet I realised that many people felt like me too. I was in denial a wee while. It took me 4 years to dump that ludicrous religion after realising I just did'nt believe it. What a hold they have on you!!

Now, I love all people unconditionaly. I enjoy life and wish to treat people fairly and with absolute love - something JW life takes away from you. Although I have difficulties (wife stil in org), things are going well and I have TRUE inner peace.

* Its better to have questions unanswered than answers you cant question. - VERY TRUE.

Love you all for the support and sounding board I needed in the last few months.

J

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A 1975 story

by TooBad TooSad in

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while i was in high school in the mid 60's i was told that the end was so near that i would not get to graduate from high school so i should not be concerned about being drafted due to the war in vietnam.

well i got drafted but did not pass my physical due to a medical problem.. i then considered go to school in the late 60's to enter the medical field.

i was encouraged by the elders not to do this because the end is so near and why get schooling for a profession that you will not need in a few years?

jambon1

I find it disgusting that people gave up good careers and preached this crap. It is so bad. Also, how can they claim not to have started this thing off with all the talks, books etc??

I was told that they preached this 10 yrs ago but after getting the `official` line I swollowed it and became a zealous dub. Shame on me!

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lola and Super_Becka...

by Super_Becka in

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... are wondering which jwders you're harbouring a secret crush on.

ok guys, time to 'fess up, we want to know which members you have a crush on.

c'mon, don't be shy!!.

jambon1

If that is Kittyeatsdubz on her avatar then I think she is hot hot hot!

I know shes linked up tho, but shes cute.

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C.O / D.O leaving the `truth`???

by jambon1 in

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this is probobly a long shot & i doubt it`s happened but does anyone know if any circuit overseers or district overseers have ever left.

if so, in what circumstances?

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This is probobly a long shot & I doubt it`s happened but does anyone know if any Circuit Overseers or District Overseers have ever left. If so, in what circumstances ?

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to all jw apologist.....if your religion is so full of love then why....

by kittyeatzjdubs in

did my mother move to florida without so much as a phone call or a letter letting me know?

i found out from my ''worldly'' aunt, 4 months after she had already left.

she's back in town for the week.

jambon1

By the sounds of it you are living a very good life and doing well. So you made some mistakes? Focus on this and you will get through it all. Love all whom love you unconditionaly.

One thingthat always got to me when I was in was that I too have a lot going for me in life. Good job, lovely mannerly kids, wonderful wife and I am respected by most people who know me. Yet, I always still felt inadequate due to the `nothing-is-ever-good-enough` policy that comes with being a JW.

Now, Im free and enjoying people and life to the full. Hey, and Im still respected by others.

Enjoy life,

J

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to all jw apologist.....if your religion is so full of love then why....

by kittyeatzjdubs in

did my mother move to florida without so much as a phone call or a letter letting me know?

i found out from my ''worldly'' aunt, 4 months after she had already left.

she's back in town for the week.

jambon1

Kitty

The truth is no-one deserves shunning. If its a bible doctrine fine, is the bible always right? Is it right to live by book which sentances people like you to be stoned to death (law to Moses) - again, any right thinking person would say no, no, no!!

I genuinely pity any parent who shuns his/her offspring (unless its for VERY good reason). JW`s shun people who make everyday mistakes, people who have weaknesses. It is an offense to humanity. This must do untold mental damage to a 20 yr old like you and the thousands of others who suffer the same fate.

And I dont swallow this crap about most witnesses not being so hard line like your mum. - its simply not what I`ve seen.

Please keep your chin up.

J

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What was the biggest scandal that went down in your cong?

by jambon1 in

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as it says on the tin - thoughts please?..........

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As it says on the tin - thoughts please?..........

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Malawi/Mexico?????

by jambon1 in

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after reading a few posts refering to malawi/mexico, i would like to know what all this was about.

any links or reading material which explains what happened?

jambon1

After reading a few posts refering to Malawi/Mexico, I would like to know what all this was about. I'm new here.

Any links or reading material which explains what happened?

Thanks,

J

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What effect did armaggeddon/possible persecution have on your mental state?

by jambon1 in

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i was`nt brought up in the `truth`.

i have recently left and am amazingly happy.. one thing that got to me was my mental state of mind which became extreemly negative about the future.. i worried very much about non jw relatives (good people) dying at armaggeddon.

also reading the endless accounts of bros/sis being brutally tortured/raped etc really disturbed me.

jambon1

Take a look at the 3rd picture down - the one with the sinners glasses half falling off.

- Believe it or not but that was painted onto an assembly theme board above the platform for hundreds to see. It was the 'Keep close in mind Jehovahs day' circuit assembly about 7 years ago.

Sick bastard$