Hello
I just stumbled on this site today, and am I ever glad I did!!! I was raised as a witness, my mom being a witness and my dad a non believer. Growing up I never wanted to follow all the rules, and often broke them behind my mothers back. At 15 I moved out and stayed with family friends who were also witness' but lived about 12 hours away from my mother. I went to meetings because I had to and at 16 got baptized because I wanted to do the right thing. At 17 I moved out on my own and completely left the truth. Up untill the age of 18 I had never done anything that would have gotten me DF'd. Now, here I am at age 21, I've been living with my boyfriend for 3 years and feel only disgust towards the entire organization. For the first 2-3 years when I first left the organization in the back of my mind I still felt that it was the truth and I would eventually go back once I had my fun. Recently, probably within the last year I have realized how utterly ridiculous, and completely deceptive the religion really is. I feel it is a cult that brainwashes people into twisted thinking and half truths. What kind of religion makes you disown your own family members!!! I don't believe in god anymore at all or have any "spiritual" beliefs. Sometimes I feel a little lost having no family that will speak to me, and having my entire belief system completely reversed in such a short period of time. I feel so disgusted with religion in all senses. So I was wondering what you believe in now?? Do you still believe there is a god, do you attend any churches??