Being 5 years old and on a big vacation to Mexico City with my Dad, Mom and Grandma and walking among the Teotihuacan ruins. Climbing the pyramids of the Temple of the Moon and Temple of the Sun (actually as I think back I'm surprised we set foot on that place being how steeped in "paganism" it is. We also toured a hugh Cathedral in Mexico City and I remember thinking "Why are we in this church?, I thought Jehovah didn't want us going to churches?" and being scared that we were looking at giant crosses and the such. Even as a 5 year old I was so "indoctranated"
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Favourite Memories!
by BlessedStar inso you must have at least a favourite memory of your life, care to share it with us?.
one of my favourite memories is....... the first time when i went to the beach.
i was a kid then.
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Oh, I really screwed up on this one. What should I do?
by stilllying inok, here is a quick synopsis.
i was born and raised "in the truth".
i was df when i was 17 and moved away, got married, had kids etc....i came back into the "truth" at around 27 out of guilt and a strong need/desire to speak with my mother, father and sister again but since they lived back east and i lived out west they didn't really know that after a few years i became inactive again and now that dad's passed away and mom is sick i don't have the heart to tell them that i haven't been to a single meeting in over 10 years (except for the ones i go to when i go back to visit them and pretend like everything is aok and i am 100% yada,, yada, yada) any way, i just told my mom that me and the family are going on a cruise over spring break and you guessed it, she says, "oh no, you are going to miss the .....memorial!!!!????
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Thanks to everyone for the warm welcome. I will let you all know how it goes.
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Isn't it strange how those songs stay in your head. I can still remember alot of the words though I haven't sung them in years and years and years.This is Jehovah's day, his will is here to stay, he's laid in Zion his chief cornerstone..... Let all lift up the voice, thank god and rejoice, for in Jehovah's Kingdom, we put faith alone...... What will you bring, Jehovah's Kingdom? Triumph of truth and happiness, and bring what else, Jehovah's Kingdom, eternal life and happiness, ..... got most of that right huh?
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Oh, I really screwed up on this one. What should I do?
by stilllying inok, here is a quick synopsis.
i was born and raised "in the truth".
i was df when i was 17 and moved away, got married, had kids etc....i came back into the "truth" at around 27 out of guilt and a strong need/desire to speak with my mother, father and sister again but since they lived back east and i lived out west they didn't really know that after a few years i became inactive again and now that dad's passed away and mom is sick i don't have the heart to tell them that i haven't been to a single meeting in over 10 years (except for the ones i go to when i go back to visit them and pretend like everything is aok and i am 100% yada,, yada, yada) any way, i just told my mom that me and the family are going on a cruise over spring break and you guessed it, she says, "oh no, you are going to miss the .....memorial!!!!????
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I just googled kingdom halls in Puerto Vallarta and there is one on Libramiento 244 and meetings in english at Milan 271 in the Versalles neighborhood. Contact Jose Pena at 222-2732. That should be enough info to work!
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POST YOUR EXPERIENCE OF GROWING UP AS A JW....
by SWALKER ini guess that one of my first memories, about 3 years old, had to be sitting in a hard chair being made to listen to a boring talk that i didn't understand.
we weren't allowed any toys or books to look at besides the wt publications...i remember getting taken outside and beat for something i did...but i didn't even understand what i did wrong.
i remember that our car didn't have air-conditioning and during the summer how hot and sticky i was by the time i got to the kh.
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I am another that was "born into the truth". My parents were also very loving, great parents but also very strick when it came to meeting attendance and field service. My dad became an elder when they first started up the "elder" system. Remember when there was just a "presiding overseer"? Any way, we, as the family of an elder, had to set the correct example for the congregation. We went in service EVERY Saturday and Sunday without exception, never, ever missed a meeting and had to answer at least once at every meeting to show we were prepared. We always had a weekly family bible study, usually preparing for the WT study or whatever new release came out at the assembly. My family life was pretty good. Dad and Mom were never abusive and were overall great parents and I think that is why I always felt so guilty that even from a very early age I just didn't "feel" the truth in my heart. I was always was so embarrased when friends from school would see me going door to door or doing street corner work. I never felt left out about holidays because I never knew what it was like to celibrate any holidays. Still to this day, I do it for my kids but I really don't get anything out of it, I'd just assume to skip the holidays. So I was always taught that the end would come in 1975 too and always thought how messed up it was that I would never experience my first kiss, sex, marriage, having kids etc... because I knew in my heart that everything I was doing (being the perfect witness) was to please my parents, not Jehovah. In 1975 I would only be 14 years old and I honestly thought I would die in Armagaddon. I remember telling my friends at school that I would not live past 14 years old. So, all of a sudden when I turned 13 I thought, You know if I am going to die within the next year or so I want to experience everything I can before I do. So I started my journey with my first kiss (with a boy in the congregation) and before I knew it it was 1975. OH OH, better speed things up, the end will be here anytime now. So I moved very quickly (and very secretively) went to the next step, ditched school, smoked pot for the first time, got into a little heavy petting. Still the parents didn't know because I was a really good liar and still did all the "good, spiritual stuff". OH, OH, 1976, WTF??? the end will be here any second so I lost my viginity, smoked some more pot while ditching school and still got home in time to have dinner with the family and get to the meeting for my talk. Oh the toll leading the double life takes on a kid. I finally made the mistake of confiding in a girl friend at the kingdom hall who I thought I could trust because she hated pretending too and what did she do but turn me into the elders. So I was DF and moved out of the house at 17. I did just about every crazy thing a young girl gone wild could do, sex, drugs, crime, I went totally HOG CRAZY, it's a wonder I am not dead with the stuff I did. The really sad thing is that here I sit at almost 45 years old, my dad has passed away, mom is very ill and everyone still thinks I am in the truth (I came back into the truth at 28 after seeing my parents for the first time in 10 years) but I have been inactive for over 10 years and I just don't have the guts to tell them. I guess my name says it all huh?
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Oh, I really screwed up on this one. What should I do?
by stilllying inok, here is a quick synopsis.
i was born and raised "in the truth".
i was df when i was 17 and moved away, got married, had kids etc....i came back into the "truth" at around 27 out of guilt and a strong need/desire to speak with my mother, father and sister again but since they lived back east and i lived out west they didn't really know that after a few years i became inactive again and now that dad's passed away and mom is sick i don't have the heart to tell them that i haven't been to a single meeting in over 10 years (except for the ones i go to when i go back to visit them and pretend like everything is aok and i am 100% yada,, yada, yada) any way, i just told my mom that me and the family are going on a cruise over spring break and you guessed it, she says, "oh no, you are going to miss the .....memorial!!!!????
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Ok, here is a quick synopsis. I was born and raised "in the truth". I was DF when I was 17 and moved away, got married, had kids etc....I came back into the "truth" at around 27 out of guilt and a strong need/desire to speak with my mother, father and sister again but since they lived back east and I lived out west they didn't really know that after a few years I became inactive again and now that dad's passed away and mom is sick I don't have the heart to tell them that I haven't been to a single meeting in over 10 years (except for the ones I go to when I go back to visit them and pretend like everything is AOK and I am 100% yada,, yada, yada) Any way, I just told my mom that me and the family are going on a cruise over spring break and you guessed it, she says, "Oh no, you are going to miss the .....MEMORIAL!!!!????" I forgot to check when the memorial was and totally forgot so I could cover my tracks when speaking to her about anything going on around that time. What do I do now??? You can only imagine the silence, it was like she was in shock! I know I am lame for even still pretending that I am still a JW but I just don't want to upset my mom. I love her dearly and she is a very ill lady and it would break her heart. Anyway, any ideas what I can do now. I was thinking about telling her I contacted a kingdom hall in Puerto Vallerta and would go while in port that evening. What do you all think?