"That's the problem, without these fairy tales, I believe life is meaningless." - unsure
By believing this thought and holding on to it tightly, you are limiting yourself in your search for your life's meaning. Is there an ultimate meaning to life? No one really knows. Is there a road to follow that will lead us to permanent salvation? Many make religious and supernatural claims that by 'following this or that formula or religion' you will finally attain the ultimate end goal which will add meaning to your life. By following such a philosophy, you are putting the 'cart before the horse' . The real question for each of us is, 'How can I find meaning in my life from moment to moment and from day to day'? Is there not meaning in seeing the smile of a child? In the beautiful fragrance from a flower? The embrace from a loved one? Helping someone that you care for? Showing loving concern for others less fortunate than you? Giving a gift freely and without expectation of anything in return? The list of potential meanings in our lives is endless and personal because only we find and fulfill them. Stop worrying and projecting your one and only life into the future. Live life daily and find your meaning where it presents itself. Life is not 'a dress rehearsal'. This is it. Is there something more than this life? It would be nice if there was but I'm not going to waste precious life now worrying about it and I don't think you should either. You are a unique human being because there is no one else like you. Go out into the world and share your uniqueness with others. They will be glad that you did and so will you.