Hey, I'm D Mouses son. My dad got me to read your message and said I could relate to it and help in some way. My family are exactly the same my mum's still a dub and my dad stopped years ago and has been posting on this site for god knows how long. The thing is I was so into it, I loved everything about being a JW. I would block out everything my dad told me and I hated him for not letting me get baptised. However I to began to like the same sex. I would sit there and listen to my mum and grandma saying people like me were evil and wrong. I just sat and nodded. It was awful, And I understand compleatly how you must feel. Fortuantly I got away from it all about a year ago. I managed to tell my mum I didn't want it anymore and I couldn't tell her why, She'd be destroyed, her little boy....gay! I said I just needed time away from the meetings and from the people. I told my friends a few months after and they all loved me even more....bless em. The friends I had in the congregation when they found out through their little sources turned their backs on me. I still don't know whether my mum knows, I haven't got it in me to tell her. My dad is fine with me and supports me in everything I do.
Still, that probably doesn't help you to much. I think you need to do it gently, Don't drop it all in one. Tell her you don't want to go to the meetings, It will be tough for a while, lots of crying. I found it awful, the guilt was tremendous. But believe me once you have stopped going you will never look back and think I wish I hadn't done that. No one can force you to go to the meetings no matter what they might make you believe. You need to do it know before it's to late. The longer you leave it the harder it will be. I know it's tough but it really is the best thing. You will only hurt yourself more by staying in. And I'm positive your dad will support you in all your decisions and he wouldn't let anything happen to you. Your mum will always love you no matter what. I know that now and It will take time for you to know that, but it's true.
Well I hope thats helped and I hope your troubles sought themselves out....they all do eventually. Remember you only live once and it has to be the life you love not the one your mother wants.
Love Benji xxx
