I left the WT pre-internet, but had I had access to the information out there (well, out here) now, I would've been more sure of what I was doing, had less guilt, and been less of a lingering sympathizer over the years.
Daniel
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What impact did the internet have on your decision to leave the JW's?
by JH in.
on another thread, a co says that sites like these don't have much impact on their numbers.. personally i didn't leave because of this site or any other xjw site.. i was unhappy and felt that something was wrong and this site confirmed what i felt.. how about you?
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I'm new here, published an XJW Novel
by apostawriter inami i the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community?
it seems like forever ago i wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways.
i'm daniel allen cox in montreal, canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.. yeah, so a sister in the kh reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an elder.
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Hi Bubble, very true. Perhaps I needed some incubation time in the dark. Or something.
LittleRockGuy, I'd like to hear more about your experience. I know what you all mean by drifting, perhaps we learned this form of acceptable denial by being JWs, no?
Again, thanks for the welcomes.
Daniel
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I'm new here, published an XJW Novel
by apostawriter inami i the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community?
it seems like forever ago i wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways.
i'm daniel allen cox in montreal, canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.. yeah, so a sister in the kh reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an elder.
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hello all,
I apologize for my slowness in responding, but I have spotty wireless service.
Almost atheist, thanks for pointing out the fact that I'm UP. You are right...we need to get away from the WT jargon hard-wired in our brain, or at least co-opt it for our own nefarious purposes.
KK, I've emailed you...
Jgnat, I'd love to hear about the writing projects on your plate. I've read some of your posts--insightfully written.
And everyone else, thanks for helping me see 'New Light', and for your encouragement. Makes me feel that my years hunkered in front of a computer have not been a waste. And THAT feels good.
a little overwhelmed,
Daniel
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I'm new here, published an XJW Novel
by apostawriter inami i the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community?
it seems like forever ago i wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways.
i'm daniel allen cox in montreal, canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.. yeah, so a sister in the kh reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an elder.
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Lilly, thanks for picking up a copy!
Your comments were encouraging and your story inspiring (see Free Minds testimonial). Sometimes I wonder what it is in a story that people relate to, even when it is, at least superficially, different from our own. And I think it has something to do with our particular brand of spiritual success as ex- (or questioning) JW's. Having to clear out so many harmful thought patterns has lead to a certain kind of awareness about ourselves. It sets us apart, rings us together. Thank-you Lilly!
Daniel
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I feel like I'm Living a lie!
by kgav8r ini believe i have come to realize that i am no better than the jdubs myself.
for about six weeks now i have been going to a book study with a friend of my girlfriend.
i act very interested, i give him the answers he wants to hear, i am the perfect and progressing study.
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Kgav8r, be careful about damaging your own sense of spirituality. What you are doing cannot be strengthening it. Would your girlfriend find depth and beauty in someone whose own spirituality has been eroded? She will eventually sense your unhappiness.
Daniel
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Remember when KH's had a piano and real singing?
by WingCommander inthe thread about got me thinking about my very early childhood, back when witnesses were allowed to be social and have get togethers.
they also had a piano in every congregation i ever attended, and an older sister would always play the kingdom melody.
there was actual singing - not mindless droning and humming.
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I'm new here, published an XJW Novel
by apostawriter inami i the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community?
it seems like forever ago i wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways.
i'm daniel allen cox in montreal, canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.. yeah, so a sister in the kh reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an elder.
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wow, such a warm welcome!
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I'm new here, published an XJW Novel
by apostawriter inami i the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community?
it seems like forever ago i wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways.
i'm daniel allen cox in montreal, canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.. yeah, so a sister in the kh reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an elder.
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Hi Jedi,
I've often wondered how much of my personal experience is required to write good fiction, and it's probably a convoluted 50%. Like, the surface details (setting, name, circumstances, events)--mostly different. Perhaps this is a glamourized version of how I would've like to go up in flames.
The feelings, however, are ALL the same.
Daniel
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Is There Anything That You Still Believe In Because of the Witnesses?
by minimus ini still don't believe in hellfire.
i think astrology and palm reading is ridiculous.
that's a couple of things that i know i got from being a jw......what about you??
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It took me ten years after leaving to finally dispel the idea of Armageddon. I didn't BELIEVE believe in it, but there was always a sense of doom hovering over me. I called it 'Armageddon Clouds'.
Daniel
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I'm new here, published an XJW Novel
by apostawriter inami i the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community?
it seems like forever ago i wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways.
i'm daniel allen cox in montreal, canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.. yeah, so a sister in the kh reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an elder.
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Hello everybody,
Ami I the only one who waited 15 years to reach out to the xjw community? It seems like forever ago I wrote that syrupy letter of disassociation...anyways. Hi! I'm Daniel Allen Cox in Montreal, Canada, anxious to share my experience and to hear yours.
Yeah, so a sister in the KH reacted to my saying that her boyfriend was handsome by telling an Elder. Then it was disfellowship or disassociate, and I chose to articulate my inarticulate feelings in a hand-scrawled letter, and had to tell my mom I was queer from a payphone, before they announced my apostasy that night at the KH and she found out second-hand.
By-the-by, Tattoo This Madness In, the xjw novel I've been working on for years has been published and I guess it's time to let people know. I wish I had rebelled as heroically as my main character, and I guess that's why I wrote it. I'll save the wordiness for my book blog:
I look forward to making friends, please don't be shy. I'm the shy one.
Your humble servant,
Daniel Allen Cox