Dear Catfish,
I too have been lurking about for a while. I also have lost all my family because I chose not to be a JW. I was never baptized, but I was told that I was on drugs, and just caught up in the world. I ahve been so lonely. It's hard not having a mother to turn to. I have been very ill and no one knows. I called my mother in Nov. and she told me that she does not have a daughter and to never call her again. The saddest part is that she is missing out on her grandchildren. My parents have lied to me so much it's sad. I found out that my dad was not my biological father, and when I asked questions I was told it was no of my business. I don't know what to do. I pray that somehow, someway thaey will come out.
So I completely understand what you are feeling. I have been in therapy. The need to feel loved and worthy is diffulct for me. Please do not be afraid to seek help if you need it.