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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

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  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  hey everyone...

  i am alive. am in taiwan. my brother is still in a coma. it's a rollercoaster of ups and downs.

  this is the worst thing that has happened to me in my 33 years and it is not even happening to ME. that being said, my ex has not been a very good friend through any of this.

  there are people who have never claimed to have loved me. they are expressing genuine concern...sending emails, trying to call, offering their help. this man has claimed to have loved me and i get almost nothing. what little has been said by him has been pointless. it's like dealing with a stranger, a walking zombie. he has totally clicked off.

  he is not there for me in any form, least of all as a friend. i will never forgive him for this and do no longer care who he is, how he is, etc. let the watchtower society have him. he wants to be had.

  he no longer exists for me.

  my brother may lie in a coma, but in his state, he is still more alive than my ex will ever be.

  thank you for all of your help, nonetheless. i received much solace from your advice when it was so needed.

  peace.

  rachel
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  by the way...

  my ex called this morning and we spoke for almost an hour. didn't talk about anything in regards to 'us'. he did say a couple of times towards the end that it's important i stay 'positive'...not just about my brother, but with everything. that you have to believe life will get better in order for it to do so. i know he was referring to 'us'. i do believe the man is trying to tell me to 'move on' with my damn self...

  right?
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  hampstead-

  it's all crap...isn't really my line. i have to keep it clean because i'm online :)

  my brother isn't okay. he's apparently having surgery right now to remove a hemmorage in his brain. my mom and i don't leave until tomorrow morning.

  these situations in life make this crap with our jws so much more frustrating. life can be over in a second and everyone is playing like we have forever...lying, cheating, pretending, withholding. people playing games... i am so sick of it...

  people-go home today...smile bigger, laugh harder, kiss longer... and don't 'assume' anything.

  peace.
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  hampstead-

  sorry to hear that you are hurting... i believe, at this point, that there is no way to 'unbrainwash' someone unless they truly want to be 'unbrainwashed'. in life there are people that are just born to follow. no matter what. they choose the easy way out...not having to think for themselves. this is what my ex did. it's just too bad he had to drag me down with him.

  everyone... an update...

  my brother, who lives in taiwan, had a motorcycle accident yesterday and is in a coma. i have to leave on friday to see him. i left a message on my ex's machine last night and never heard a response. i was fuming. i thought there is no way someone could be so cold. i sent him a text this evening saying that it was too bad that he let the wts not only take his brain, but also his heart and that i never wanted to speak to him again.

  he called soon thereafter and left a message...saying that he hadn't listened to my message last night (because he thought i was calling to say something about his religion), that he is really sorry, that he cares about me and that he has me in his prayers.

  i just feel like it's all crap. he cares about me. if he cared about me, why did he do this in the first place. if he cared about me, why am i dealing with this crap alone.

  i know i sound like a victim right now. i'm not. just pissed. just complaining. thanks for listening...

  peace.
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  hey everybody...

  how goes it?

  so, i text him a few days ago asking how he was...i received a text back that said, "i have been crazy. hope you are well. biz, life, everything." doesn't sound very loving... i text him back that i was a bit sad and that i missed him. no reply.

  so, last night, i had a couple of glasses of wine and i emailed him. i told him that i loved him and that he owed it to himself to research his religion. that he isn't giving me up for god. he's giving me up for a man-made institution.

  anyway, no reply yet. do you think he thinks i'm attacking him? do you think he just wishes i would go away? should i care? i mean, if he hunts me down after 11 years, i suppose i have the right to send a few emails...

  it seems that most of you are saying that i shouldn't give up on him, that i should contact him... i guess i could use some further advice on how to go about it. i don't think my way is working :)

  by the way...

  cherish- how's your situation coming along?

  gnat- i'm going to pick up hassan's book on mind control... thanks for the tip.

  lisavegas420- thanks for not forgetting about me!!! ya think contacting some of those people you hurt in the past might make them and you feel a bit better? i know that i would appreciate it, especially if i really cared for you. just a thought.

  peace.

  limitless (who is now 'limited' because of her situation :) )
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  guys-

  thanks so much for the good wishes and the good advice. i thought everyone forgot about me...nobody wrote yesterday...

  you know, we hadn't spoken for over three and a half weeks. i text-messaged him yesterday and received a reply today...very matter of fact.

  i was so hurt when he made his big statement (not being able to reconcile jehovah and i in his future). i think my being so angry and hurt (more hurt than angry), and less than understanding, pushed him into a place where he shut down.

  i don't even know if he's willing to talk to me. i think he's scared. he knows that he caused this situation and my feelings. not only can he not deal with my feelings, but if he speaks to me than he has to deal with his own in relation to mine...know what i mean? so, i think it's easier for him to try to pretend i don't exist. whether or not he's doing a great job of that, who knows. we can only know what people tell us. and he's not telling me anything.

  regardless, i am going to send him a copy of COC, and cross my fingers that he'll read it.

  a couple of things that he said when we were ending that just sound crazy to me...

  " i love everything about you. there is nothing i would change, except for this" - but he always said that he wouldn't want me to change my beliefs for him so i don't think he was trying to convert me.

  "it's just that i was so happy and everything felt so good, that i just wasn't thinking" - can you imagine? as if being happy and feeling good is an issue.

  "you could never be a witness...this is a submissive organization, you have a problem with authority, you're too independent, and you like to ask a lot of questions" - i can't fathom saying this and thinking it's a healthy statement.

  people- my heart is broken, i am really sad, but i would like to let you all know that i feel so much better getting all of your advice. you are doing good things here. helping people.

  peace.
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  by the way...

  i would give up paradise on earth to live with him in this one...
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  berean2 and earthtone-

  thanks for the thoughts...

  the problem is that i do know he thinks that he is making a choice between god and i...and he chose god.

  he was impossible to speak with regarding religion. he always felt 'attacked' by me, but it was he who was attacking. he has a big problem with the fact that i don't need to know what created me. my thoughts are that i will never know until it is smacked up against my face (and that may never happen). i am just concerned with being the best human that i can be...and not because i am afraid of eternal damnation or because i'm trying to kiss butt to some god. it's because, at the end of the day, it feels like the right thing to do.

  this is not good enough for him.

  yes, it has been over 3 weeks since we have spoken. it seems to me, it you really loved someone, you would be worried about how they are doing, no?

  i am in love with this man, and i am pissed. as if jehovah, if he exists, is worried about my man loving, and being loved.

  earthtone- what changed for you? why did you stop giving up good people for your religion? what clicked?
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  the biggest sale

  i dated him years ago back in harlem, it was short and it was sweet

  wouldn't have remembered him if asked about my past

  eleven years later he shows up selling himself

  job with oppenheimer, poetry writer

  smooth black skin, a smile that reels you in

  says all the right things, more than right

  things that have you grinning, squealing in delight

  talks about your future, you're believing it all

  i mean, why would a man find you after eleven years and counting, love you, get you to love him for nothing at all

  so he flatters you on all levels from your hair to your home

  has you thinking your important, that he loves you to the bone

  says he's lucky to have you, has never felt that before

  but it seems we now have a problem, it's jehovah or the door

  i don't care if you're good. i don't care if you're honest.

  empathy, humor, intelligence, what's that?

  i need bible readers, bulls@#$ talkers, people who speak, but don't follow through

  goodness-no, no i don't need you

  i know i said i was happy and talked a big game

  i was bored, you were single, but we-we are not the same

  so i, i was swindled and misled

  lied to and groped

  bought what he was selling

  floated on hope

  and landed in his field of emptiness

  he got the sale

  and i got nothing.
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  in love with a very confused jw

  by limitless in

  1. social
  2. relationships

  hi guys,.

  this is a fairly long story, so bear with me.... twelve years ago i dated a jw man briefly in new york.

  we got along really well, but he stopped calling.

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  limitless

  sorry about the hard read...