thank you, little drummer boy
if i may pry further... do you truly consider those years completely wasted?
as a result of your struggle with faith and with the witness organization, didn't you learn an immense amount about yourself? granted, much of it may have been through repression and the subsequent nightmare of detaching yourself and rebuilding your lifestyle... but wasn't that struggle one of deep self-revelation?
i've seen many people go through life, never believing in anything strongly, and therefore never being shaken out of that belief by a revelation... some of those people never begin the path of self-discovery throughout their entire lives, because they never have any kind of trauma to instigate questioning or investigation...
if nothing else, i would imagine, after so many years of denying yourself urges based on belief, that finally satiating those urges would be much, much sweeter than the common experience ever could be to someone who didn't go through the same struggle...
i guess, i'm just hoping that you (and the others on this board) don't feel regretful about the long periods of time you spent with the witnesses... it seems that you were all able to go through a complete rebirth after leaving the religion, and rebirth is a pretty valuable thing a lot of people do not ever achieve...
please, refute me if you consider me wrong...
warlock,
ultimately, i will certainly speak to a few practicing jehovah's witnesses... hearing the perspective of one who is still passionately in the belief system will be just as beneficial as hearing your retrospective stories...
but, out of respect to those who do follow the belief system, i would not allow myself to become inducted into the religion... because my intentions would be out of the desire to examine and gain knowledge, not out of faith... and that is unjust, and quite frankly an insult, to anyone who is in the organization because of faith...
so i will make most accurate representation possible based on accounts... writing has to be vicarious sometimes...
i thank you for the suggestion, it was something i honestly had not thought of before...